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Surrender is the way we battle PTSD!

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Matthew Ricard explains happiness as a two part journey, first refuse to ruminate in negative thought, next put yourself in situations that happiness inhabits.

It is mandatory we accomplish the first requirement (not dissociating) or happiness loses any chance of becoming reality.

Awareness of our self talk becomes necessary.

Like a resume, we reconstruct a worthy “Ego”, overflowing with self approval and kindness.

Healing and happiness are an internal uncovering of the perfect real self, hidden inside our trauma.

We are not constructing a worthy being, just letting go the cloud which conceals the real me (you).

You and me are as worthy as every being on this planet.

If you lived through childhood abuse, being worthy is not a sentiment we are familiar with.

Realize the real battle, it is not trying to influence the noise.

Letting the noise exit is our goal.

Surrender is our sword in the battle of PTSD!

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Being Vulnerable

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Learning to experience fear and pain was paramount for me to heal.

I learned to accept, then surrender to triggers. It was an arduous journey wrought with irrational fear and confusion.

Persistent, daily practice chipped away at my fears little by little.

I learned to experience the trigger thoughts without judgment or resistance.

In fact I teach this in my mindfulness group.

Surrender is our most powerful strength!

What we resist, persists.

I fought my PTSD and it grew, I surrendered to it and it collapsed.

Counterintuitive yes, but surrendering is part of healing, the ultimate act of letting go.

We heal by not thinking or talking about our details and symptoms.

Practice, take small, specific, concrete steps and heal.

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Surrender: a great tool for healing, wellbeing (Happiness)

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Healing was incremental for me, each plateau reached through concerted action over months. Nothing came easy or quick.


Complex PTSD from a childhood does not heal miraculously, quickly or easily. The mind was not fully developed when trauma entered its world. Hard to tell what is normal and what is the aftermath of abuse.


Aerobic exercise, therapy, reading, meditating, practicing acceptance, applying mindfulness and persistence each brought benefits for me. Sometimes all hope seemed lost but something inside refused to give up.


This trait is very important. Lots of setbacks, even perceived losses on this journey. That inner guide can be our savior in our low moments.


Meditating and mindfulness carved out a small secure space for me to survive. This space grew incrementally as I healed.


It was like climbing a ladder, each successive rung revealed more of the horizon, more of the path.


Acceptance was difficult, releasing the shame and guilt reached a sticking point. My fear, worry and confusion kept me paralyzed for months.


I still had resistance, actually I was terrified, enforced with cortisol by my fight or flight mechanism exploding. The drugs are real, the storyline is the mirage.


Being vulnerable, that is surrendering completely in the face of my trauma, broke the traffic jam. It was scary not to resist, to be so vulnerable, so defenseless.


With arms outstretched, totally open, I pictured my heart as a butterfly net.


I had found the next step, being vulnerable, surrendering to my fears.

 

This exposed my fears so I could observe them.


Try surrendering the next time you meditate.
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Surrender, More than Acceptance!!!!

 

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Want to improve, deepen, heal, find some happy, then action is needed.

 

Meditation uses “Acceptance” to let go, opening the “Mindful” building.

 

Surrendering accesses the elevator to the upper floors.

 

Accepting was difficult and remains a challenge. We accept everything about ourselves right now, no further knowledge or accomplishment needed.

 

 

I always had this feeling of fear, like placing your arms in front of you for protection while meditating, exploring.  My body would feel tense or anxious.

 

 

Then I came up with a solution to relax my resistance.

 

 

I visualized opening my arms out as far as possible to each side of me.

 

 

 

My heart was exposed, open, vulnerable for the first time.

 

 

 

My heart became a butterfly net for the next ten minutes.

 


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Every emotion, judgment, thought, doubt, worry or utterance was caught gently, without resistance, a space void of judgment, ownership, thought.

 

 

Each thought is gently caught, observed, then a breath blown through it. Thoughts and emotions fade quietly in our surrendering space.

 

 

 

Practice surrendering like this to deepen your spiritual space, to enhance healing, to make happiness a daily companion.

 

 

Happiness does not appear by happenstance or chance, it is cultivated with intention, focus and behavior.

 

 

We have to clear the field of weeds, of rocks, of debris to grow our crop.

 

 

Happy is earned, accomplished by daily training, simple practices of acceptance then surrender.
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The practice is not doing , not reacting, not grasping, not avoiding, not giving in to it!

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