Posts Tagged ‘Gratitude’

Unintended consequences of meditation

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My healing journey floundered through therapies with little impact.

Healing seemed impossible until I wandered into a new hybrid therapy that used mindfulness, ACT (Acceptance and Commitment therapy).

Being obsessed with healing, I meditated with a vengeance. Five hours a day for five years.

Healing was slow without direction or the wisdom needed to heal, so I sat more.

Healing arrived in subtle ways at first, then plotted a path to wellbeing.

Unintended consequences arrived with the planned ones.

My compassion center opened wide and I could feel others suffering intimately.

To this day seeing homeless people tears at me emotionally.

I feel their suffering immediately, it impacts my life, my thoughts, and my emotions.

It is a helpless feeling, I can not impact all this suffering.

My happiness is clouded with knowing these souls suffer in my midst.

Most people ignore or do not see these souls as people worth caring about.

Yesterday, while buying a pizza for my grandkids inside this crowded market, I asked for a extra slice.

While buying that piece of pizza, I announced that slice was for the homeless guy at the exit.

It was not to enhance my ego, but to show others it is ok to care and give.

Most were shocked, a few smiled and I could see the givers amongst me.

We need to be a country of givers, a society of compassionate souls.

The landscape I see does not resemble giving, we have become takers as a country.

Open your compassion center, giving to the less fortunate is a road that leads to a happy, fulfilled life.

We think money and power lead to happiness.

Happiness is not an isolated feeling, hard to be happy with suffering overwhelming our landscape.

Please share your feelings on others suffering.

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Happiness is permanent.

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Happiness is permanent.

It is always there.


What comes and goes is unhappiness. 


If you identify with what comes and goes, you will be unhappy.

If you identify with what is permanent and always there, you are happiness itself.

Poonjaji, 1910 – 1997, Indian non-dualist teacher

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Working with Anxiety

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I have had success sitting with those suffering from PTSD or other anxiety disorders.

I am like a security blanket, extra protection, for those trying to heal.

They must trust me enough, to sit still in the middle of there anxiety.

The biggest challenge is having the courage to sit quietly when our fight or flight mechanism explodes.

If I can help them dissipate their anxiety with the breath, life changes.

Knowing we can influence anxieties grip on our life gives us hope.

We are not helpless, we can dissipate anxieties power.

We have to be terrified of our trauma, our anxiety to suffer the awful symptoms of panic, hypervigilance, dissociation etc.

Sitting quietly, focused on the breath first, then focused on the body sensations helps integrate anxiety or trauma.

Judgment has ceased, we have entered the subtleties of our inner 🌎 world.

Once we have organically felt the power to dissipate anxiety, it loses some power.

Our mind follows repetitive thoughts. Like meditation, it is an accumulative practice.

Each time we sit quietly focused dissipating anxiety, each time it loses more power.

A calmer, more confident you will become the new default mode.

Expand your boundaries, search out a mindfulness group or an appropriate support group.

Take action, make a daily plan if you value improving.

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We need not win but we must fight

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In my opinion, results are way above our pay grade. Results have many external influences out of our control.

We must find our purpose in life, then expend total effort with a positive attitude through good and not so good times.

For me, sentenced to an abusive childhood, winning was impossible.

An adult, a giant, had robbed me of my childhood and traumatized my being that would last a lifetime.

Winning was impossible. Feeling normal a dream, feeling worthy, my battle.

My fight was for survival until I could get away from the torture.

Now, my attitude and effort fill my being. Feeling worthy grew from an internal way of being, accepting and giving.

I do not judge myself anymore, I meditate, grow my gratitude and compassion daily.

We need not win but we must fight.

It is the journey we need to work on, not goals, status or approval.

Fighting is not aggressive, in fact fighting trauma, depression or anxiety is accepting, being vulnerable to our fears.

Healing is a humbling journey, the fight is accepting all of us, a worthy soul, a kind friend to all.

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Hiding in plain Sight!

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Most people I run across have lost sight of the importance of gratitude and kindness.

We all think we are flawed or we need to change, overcome or cure something to be happy.

Gratitude becomes hidden, buried amongst unfulfilled desires, replaced by Worry, doubt and unworthiness.

Hard to be grateful when we feel loss, hurt, sadness, anger, hate, jealousy or depression.

If we have a disorder like Anxiety, PTSD, depression, bi polar etc., how often do we feel gratitude.

We have a mountain of gratitude, an unlimited amount of kindness available right now.

We search for all these external cures when vast amounts of gratitude and kindness are available right below the surface.

Gratitude for ourselves remains hidden deeper, harder to find.

I know people who shower others with kindness, then ignore giving any praise for themselves.

In fact, many feel unworthy, who shower others with praise and kindness.

How can we be grateful right now?

We have to let all those false judgments about who we are go!

We are present, in this moment, focused and aware, that is enough.

The mind can be trained to focus, to empty itself of ruminating thought and be present in this moment.

All the noise fades into oblivion, and we see what has been in front of us all along, hidden in the confusion of thought and negative emotions.

How will you know if a better way of living is available?

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Where we place our Attention matters

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Can you tolerate not expressing negative emotions,

Anger. …

Annoyance. …

Sadness. …

Guilt. …

Fear and anxiety. …

Discouragement and despair. …

Apathy. …

Disappointment and frustration.

How much time would you free up?

Would positive emotions increase?

With no negative emotions getting play time, positive emotions will dominate your personality.

This idea is at the core of mindfulness.

Where we place our attention impacts life in a profound way.

In fact, I believe it is the greatest power of the mind.

A trained, focused mind does not waste energy on negative emotions.

If sadness arrives from life, sadness is felt completely without judgment, then we come back to now.

We live life, narration ceases, judgments are sparse, simple things excite us.

Please share your views and insights.

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Ptsd makes us defensive maybe even in denial

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I deal with people with PTSD, some with childhood Trauma.

Childhood trauma is a special kind of trauma, our brains have not developed, so trauma intertwines itself like an octopus with our mind.

Since trauma was endured over such a long period of time, healing is more arduous and lengthy. Remember trauma is stored with our abilities at the time it occurs.

Some trauma feels like a five year old memory to me.

Understand you have the cognitive abilities of a five year old when in the midst of this trigger firing.

Trying to think your way out will fail. It is a subconscious terrain that houses that memory.

We carry this trauma, reinforce the narrative we create with others. This narrative influences the “Ego” we create.

Think how we define “Who am I” with these influences.

Sometimes our narrative describes us as a victim of circumstance. Any narrative is a mirage.

I damn sure am not a superhero either, or some great savior of mankind.

PTSD sufferers will fight you to keep their narrative. This narrative excludes them from taking responsibility for their life.

What does your narrative say about you?

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