Posts Tagged ‘Dissociation’

I want to Heal……………… I want to be Happy!



I want to heal.

I want to improve.


I want to increase my well-being.


I want inner peace.


I want to be happy.


Do we say, I want to suffer.



We may not say it, but we sure behave in ways that bring suffering.


We need to bring awareness to our behavior.


If we want to be happy, we need to behave in a certain way.


For a start, never entertain a negative thought or say anything negative about ourselves.


Second let go of negative emotions. They receive no air time in our life.


Third, smile, you’re changing.

PTSD impacts all of us Differently!!!

PTSD impacts individuals differently. People can experience the same trauma, some will get PTSD and others will not be impacted long-term.


Some will develop PTSD immediately while others may live unaware for decades until another stressor activates that dormant trauma.


PTSD has a different effect on different people. We all suffer in the early stages of this disorder. After we figure out that we have PTSD, a search for a cure proceeds.


We suffer more when we engage in certain behaviors. We suffer less when we engage in different behaviors.

Dissociation is the lynchpin. Dissociation is leaving the present moment to enter our past or future thought patterns we habitually live.


The choice then is dissociation, grasping the storyline, judging or staying present, focusing, observing our body sensations.


Hyper-vigilance increases exponentially when we dissociate into what ifs and judgment. Avoidance becomes easier when we get lost in thought and judgment.


We journey farther and farther away from reality and down the trauma hole.


We avoid future triggers, perceived danger, narrowing our life until we end up agoraphobic.


We can learn to live and enjoy life in spite of this disorder.


We have to build certain daily skills to accomplishment this.


To stay present when a trigger explodes takes strong focus and courage from daily practice.


Work on dissociation and improve your life tremendously.


The opposite of dissociation is a mindful existence. We are ever present, observing what our eyes see, ears hear, hands touch, nose smells and mouth tastes without judgment.


Letting the noise pass on through is key.

Know your mind, explore the inner world


Where does your mind settle? What entices your mind into thought?


Rick Hanson’s says our mind has a negative slant, positive is Teflon, negative is Velcro. We always slow down to see the horrific wreck on the freeway.


Our mind unattended finds the negative, quickly!


This seems to be the origin of how we waste our lives.


We need to limit the time our mind is left unattended, wandering or ruminating in thought.


Seems a simple task. Our mind can be our friend or mental torturer.


Get to know the patterns of your mind, your daily thoughts, worries, doubts and fears.


Our wellbeing grows when we limit dissociation into past or future thought.


Do you know your mind or does your mind control you?


Do you know your inner world, nervous system?

Healing from childhood abuse



Trauma is stored in the right amygdala as implicit memory at the time it occurs.


It is stored along side your capabilities at that age.  Abused at five or ten and you feel like a child when trauma erupts. 


Part of healing integrates this trauma to the present moment.


My trauma is many decades old and my abuser is dead, so real danger is a mirage in real life.


The adrenaline and cortisol that jolts my nervous system is real. Our fight or flight mechanism is broken, reading danger everywhere.


Our goal is to integrate this implicit memory to now. We are not a 10-year-old anymore and have many more skills and alternatives now.


Our trauma happened before our minds developed fully thus confusing development with trauma.


Know the mechanism and characteristics of your abuse.  Write your triggers down to limit their power and their ability to impact your nervous system.


Develop a plan and a daily practice to confront this disorder.


Take action!



Is PTSD a Precursor to Psychogenic Nonepileptic Seizures in Veterans? Neurology Reviews. 2013 June;


SAN DIEGO—Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) preceded a diagnosis of psychogenic nonepileptic seizures in 58% of military veterans and a diagnosis of epileptic seizures in 14% of military veterans, according to Martin Salinsky, MD. His study found that a preceding history of PTSD was the only significant psychiatric predictive factor for psychogenic seizures in this population.


“This finding is largely driven by patients with a history of TBI, and particularly by patients with a history of mild TBI,” said Dr. Salinsky. “We are beginning to see a model develop whereby the development of psychogenic seizures in veterans with mild TBI may be mediated by PTSD.” Dr. Salinsky, Director of the Epilepsy Center of Excellence at the Veterans Affairs Medical Center in Portland, Oregon, presented his results at the 66th Annual Meeting of the American Epilepsy Society.


Diagnosing Psychogenic Nonepileptic Seizures in Veterans
Dr. Salinsky’s findings are the latest in his ongoing research in veterans with psychogenic nonepileptic seizures. Previously, he and his colleagues had identified psychogenic nonepileptic seizures in 25% of veterans and in 26% of civilians who were admitted to a shared epilepsy monitoring unit. “In veterans, we saw more patients with psychogenic seizures than with epileptic seizures,” he said. “In civilians, we saw many more patients with epileptic seizures as compared to psychogenic seizures. This gives the appearance that psychogenic seizures are more common in veterans, but as a percentage of all admissions, it’s almost the same.”

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PTSD picks the very, very brave soldiers, also



“Hacksaw Ridge”

“The true story of Pfc. Desmond T. Doss, who won the Congressional Medal of Honor despite refusing to bear arms during WWII on religious grounds. Doss was drafted and ostracized by fellow soldiers for his pacifist stance but went on to earn respect and adoration for his bravery, selflessness and compassion after he risked his life — without firing a shot — in the Battle of Okinawa.”


Over a 12 hour period, demonstrating superhuman strength and courage, he lowered 75 wounded comrades to safety. Two days later he returned to that Ridge and was wounded.


The movie ends with this euphoric life of grandeur, Desmond lauded and decorated with fame and glory. The real story was he suffered from crippling PTSD the rest of his life. He lived as an invalid for years, depending on his wife to take care of him. Nightmares haunted him until death.



The idea that weak soldiers get PTSD and strong ones do not, is almost abusive in nature.



This statement pisses me off and violates everything my blog and volunteering stands for.


There is a small percentage of people who are resistant to PTSD but that is under 5%. The rest of us are vulnerable. In battle placing a soldier at the front for extended periods increases PTSD significantly. Redeployments have also added to this epidemic of not only PTSD but suicides.


Soldiers with PTSD will not seek help if you strengthen that stigma of being weak causes PTSD.   This statement could not be more ignorant or uninformed.


Being vulnerable, accepting our weakness are part of the healing journey.
22 suicides a day is the opposite.


A different Diet for PTSD!!!



I looked at a picture taken the other day, unfortunately I had gained ten plus pounds.

Looking in the mirror this last month, somehow I could rationalize me slim and trim visually.


A picture does not lie! 😊



We need to apply this awareness to thoughts and judgments we have accumulated.


A thought diet!


Depression, anxiety and PTSD are fueled by this kind of thought. Wellbeing thrives in directed thought or no thought environments.


Our mind needs a break from constant thought, aimless ruminating and worrying.


How will we ever know what you’re capable of accomplishing, enduring, or who you can inspire in life?


If your life is filled with thought, worry and doubt, try something different.


Try being present, focused, empty of thought and open.


Happiness is not a cognitive based way of living.

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