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Do not give power (attention) to what is in your mind!



Do not give power (attention) to what is in your mind!

Do not give power (attention) to your critics.

Do not give power (attention) to your worries.

Do not giver power (attention) to your wins or losses.

Compete where you are now.

It is all there is, give all attention to now, to what our eyes see, ears hear, nose smells etc.

It is all that exists, the rest we create, that narrative about I, me, mine is made up.

Give power to what we see, touch, smell, hear and taste!!!!!!!



Meditation: Dying into the nondual; “Beyond Mindfulness” by Stephan Bodian



Shift your attention from your thoughts to your bodily sensations.

Be aware of the sensations of your body against the chair, your feet against the floor, your hands against your thighs. Be aware of the sensations of your arms and legs, your chest and belly, your neck and head.

Be aware of the play of sensations, how they’re constantly shifting and changing and how your awareness dances from sensation to sensation.

If you look closely, you may come to realize that all you can really know of your body is the sensations you’re experiencing right now.

Everything else is your projection, the image your mind uses to fill in the gaps.

For example, you don’t experience your whole arm, you just have certain sensations in the vicinity of where you presume you arm to be, and you project the image of an arm upon it.

It’s like an impressionist painting. There are thousands of points of color onto which we project a water lily, or a woman, or a building.

In the same way, you project the concept leg or head onto a collection of sensations.

Let go of these projections, these concepts, and just be with the sensations as they are, without interpretation.

Notice that surrounding these sensations is open space where no sensation exists at all.

In fact, there’s far more space than there is sensation, and the sensations are playing or dancing in this space.

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The Mind works best ______



The body can go supersonic, the mind works best going slow, being focused, empty of thought.

Multitasking goes beyond being fast, out there where awareness has faded.

Try slowing the body and mind at the same time.

Sit quietly, feeling gravities pull on the bottom of your feet and on your butt.

Ground yourself, gently.

Use your breath to slow the nervous system, calm respiration, blood pressure and heart rate.

Sense the minute body sensations while exploring our inner world.

Feel the body sensations caused by thoughts and emotions.

Breathe into those areas, slowly, focused and curious, observing without judgment.

Get to know your inner world, become familiar with the manifestations of thought and emotion.

They are connected and our friend, nothing to be feared, if we are familiar with them.

It is the path less traveled.



Want to meditate?



Are you a visual, auditory or tactile learner?

The answer to that question could determine your choice of a focus object.

For me, I must be visual since I constructed a breathing track for my focus object. With our eyes closed we may focus on a dark scene, bright light or images that appear.

Auditory people focus on the lowest sound in the room, then go beneath it. Listening intently to hear our slow inhales or exhales can also be a focal point.

Tactile people can touch right below the nose or between the eyes for a focal point.

They can also focus on body sensations, our inner world.

For me, I include all three, leading with visual, then adding the other two.

Intent focus on our senses is ever present in this moment without any cognitive activity needed.

Next starting with a few breaths and slowly expanding the time we sit seems the better path.

Master one breath, inhale, pause, exhale, pause completes one cycle.

The breath regulates our nervous system. Slowing the breath activates our parasympathetic nervous system, the brakes.

This brings calm, slows our heart rate and dissipates cortisol and adrenaline.

Start by focusing on one breath.

This is the core of being able to meditate.

It is a small simple way to start a mindfulness practice.



My Mindfulness Group is not what I envisioned but what I needed



My mindfulness group meets inside the county mental health building. NAMI (National Alliance of Mental Illness) office is located on the second floor.

Walking through the lobby every Thursday reminds me of the gratitude I need to carry around. I walk through real suffering, homeless elderly women, a lobby full of people in crisis.

My mindfulness group does not draw those looking for happiness, awakening or enlightenment.

Many have depression, PTSD, bi polar disorder, anxiety, etc. and are searching for help. They are taking action, it is rare.

I try to change the judgments they have made about themselves.

Having our challenges does not mean we did something wrong or we caused them.

We are not the center of this earth, life is not against us, pain does not have an emotion, it is not angry either.

There is no fear in our defense mechanism (fight or flight mechanism), it is a physiological mechanism.

We add the fear with our thoughts.

Our worries can overwhelm us or we can let them pass, and be joyful in this moment.

I have financial worries, health worries and worries about my grandkids, but these worries do not steal my present moment of experiencing my grandkids and life.

We have to clear a space without our unworthy thoughts and judgments.

That inner space, void of bias and judgments, is available if we can focus our mind in a specific way.

I know how lucky I am when I walk through that lobby.

This wisdom allows me to release my worry and appreciate all that I have.

Not possessions, but the skills and tools to have a chance at happiness. Healing has given my the skill to help other improve their lives.

Running the mindfulness group has benefitted me more than those I try to help.

Giving is a true boomerang if done without regard for reward.

We share this journey with others, not in competition.

Those awards, possessions and titles are worthless when we leave this planet.

If you want to carry something into the afterlife look at the lives of Mother Theresa, Mandela or Lincoln to see what is valuable. (Givers all)




How do we change identification with the dream character?



Awareness always starts our path to change.

My dream character was always anchored in my childhood abuse, soaked in criticism, filled with unworthiness, a fragile self image.

My coping mechanism was over achievement, another reaction to the conditioned love from childhood.

Somehow, acheiving things, inflated my worthiness for short bursts of an otherwise shameful dream of my existence.

Looking back this dream was a daily companion, life brought suffering in this created world.

Looking back, I see how past thoughts, judgments about who I was, dominated my life.

How could anyone find happiness in that hollow, unworthy self image.

I created all of that mirage.

Now, I am dissecting parts of my old dream, trading that diatribe in for being in this moment.

I have found, that living in the current moment without judgment offers many opportunities of living fully, even feeling happy at times.

Meditation, focus on the breath, has been the vehicle that helped me release my dream character.

I need not be impacted by my past, need not carry that weight any farther.

It is difficult to be open, to surrender to what we fear, what we have created through our judgments.

Start chipping away at that old self image you been carrying around like a ball and chain.

Please share your thoughts on your journey?



Meditation: Getting to know the dream you inhabit: Beyond Mindfulness



In the next week, pay special attention to the dream you’re constantly weaving about yourself.

Make it an object of your investigation, as you would a mystery you’re trying to solve.

Notice the stories you tell yourself about other people in your life and how they figure into your narrative.

Who are the villains, and who are the heroes?

Do you tend to make yourself right and other people wrong?

Or do you beat yourself up for all the mistakes you believe you’re making?

Notice the feeling tone of the dream—the anger, the fear, the hurt, the shame.

What are the recurring themes and issues?

Where did you learn to see life in this way?

Notice that sometimes the stories seem to recede into the background and loosen their grip.

How do you feel then?

What happened to the stories?

Remember that the stories you tell yourself about reality generally have very little to do with what’s actually going on.

They’re interpretations, projections onto the blank screen of possibility, which then have a powerful effect on what actually happens.

What would it be like to live free of your stories?

How would you feel?

What would your life be like?

Becoming intimately familiar with the dream you inhabit can be a first step in freeing yourself from it.



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