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PTSD picks the very, very brave soldiers, also



“Hacksaw Ridge”

“The true story of Pfc. Desmond T. Doss, who won the Congressional Medal of Honor despite refusing to bear arms during WWII on religious grounds. Doss was drafted and ostracized by fellow soldiers for his pacifist stance but went on to earn respect and adoration for his bravery, selflessness and compassion after he risked his life — without firing a shot — in the Battle of Okinawa.”


Over a 12 hour period, demonstrating superhuman strength and courage, he lowered 75 wounded comrades to safety. Two days later he returned to that Ridge and was wounded.


The movie ends with this euphoric life of grandeur, Desmond lauded and decorated with fame and glory. The real story was he suffered from crippling PTSD the rest of his life. He lived as an invalid for years, depending on his wife to take care of him. Nightmares haunted him until death.



The idea that weak soldiers get PTSD and strong ones do not, is almost abusive in nature.



This statement pisses me off and violates everything my blog and volunteering stands for.


There is a small percentage of people who are resistant to PTSD but that is under 5%. The rest of us are vulnerable. In battle placing a soldier at the front for extended periods increases PTSD significantly. Redeployments have also added to this epidemic of not only PTSD but suicides.


Soldiers with PTSD will not seek help if you strengthen that stigma of being weak causes PTSD.   This statement could not be more ignorant or uninformed.


Being vulnerable, accepting our weakness are part of the healing journey.
22 suicides a day is the opposite.


A different Diet for PTSD!!!



I looked at a picture taken the other day, unfortunately I had gained ten plus pounds.

Looking in the mirror this last month, somehow I could rationalize me slim and trim visually.


A picture does not lie! 😊



We need to apply this awareness to thoughts and judgments we have accumulated.


A thought diet!


Depression, anxiety and PTSD are fueled by this kind of thought. Wellbeing thrives in directed thought or no thought environments.


Our mind needs a break from constant thought, aimless ruminating and worrying.


How will we ever know what you’re capable of accomplishing, enduring, or who you can inspire in life?


If your life is filled with thought, worry and doubt, try something different.


Try being present, focused, empty of thought and open.


Happiness is not a cognitive based way of living.

Pay attention to what you are doing!


How many times did you hear that as a kid?


Sounds like “Awareness” practice to me.

Not paying attention, wastes our abilities and chance at wellbeing.


Multitasking is another form of not paying attention.


We now know multitasking decrease efficiency and accuracy significantly. Also, multitasking eats energy and attitude.


I try to pay attention to my mundane tasks, house chores living with my three grandkids.



Doing laundry is calming at times. My purpose is allow my grandkids to look clean, neat and their best.



I slow down focus to hang everything properly, then time disappears as I enter this task.



A chore has changed, time suspended, we are living life as fully as possible in this mundane moment.


Then we move to the next moment, hopefully leaving the thoughts about this task behind.


Practice on mundane things first, then tackle the awkward and upsetting situations next.



Perfection is never a goal, being able to come back to now after we get lost will suffice.



The election is over, how long will you carry your judgments, your thoughts.   Direct thought to a solution, a plan, then come back to the laundry, now.



Try staying present more, wandering off, doubting, worrying and obsessing less.

A Trigger firing, initiates physical and mental consequences


Physical includes, cortisol and adrenaline secreted with BP, heart rate and pulse spiking.    Loss of fine motor skills, loss of hearing and Tunnel vision also influence us.



The Mind dissociates, becomes cloudy, confused, distracted along with time being distorted. Time passes by much too slow or much too fast. The physical symptoms try to warn of a lethal threat, life or death!



PTSD usually forces us to deny, avoid or isolate. We give up fighting it after a few triggers.



Now, the mind ruminates, searches for the cause, the reason, over and over. Sometimes my mind would stay engaged for days, reliving, analyzing, then projecting.


For me the trigger lasted a short time, the intrusive thinking afterwards brought the suffering.



When we become afraid of our triggers, we start trying to control our environment. We avoid situations and people who may trigger us.


Life narrows and our thoughts become more isolated and negative.


Distracted thinking is jet fuel for trauma.


The mind, our cognitive side wants to think its way out or find a safe place to hide.


Fear and anxiety pressure us to run, avoid, deny or freeze.


The key is to limit thinking, to learn to observe life in this present moment.



PTSD is a bluff!!!



Step back, observe and see the mirage stealing your life.

Triggers part two,,2,,



Let’s be realistic about our expectations. Our healing path will have set backs, frustrating results, intense anxiety mixed with fear.


Our trauma (PTSD) has access to our fight or flight mechanism. A trigger thought, a sound or smell ignites our fight or flight mechanism. We are preparing for a lethal threat from the past, but none currently exists.


PTSD is a mirage, a stored implicit memory of trauma. The physical changes and drugs our body secretes are real.


There is no real danger, just our own defense mechanism. Hopefully, this wisdom helps us resist avoiding, ruminating or freezing (shutting down).


In my mindfulness group, if someone is triggered, I trace five slow, intense breaths with them. Eyes open, I sit across from them, tracing the breathing track together.


I reassure them of their safety, using slow breaths to dissipate the cortisol and adrenaline. They are instructed to let go of the storyline and absorb the cortisol with their slow exhales.


It may take five or more breaths. They realize you can impact PTSD fear and anxiety.


It surprises them when things calm a bit. The intense fear and anxiety can be influenced.


PTSD loses some power each time we focus, let go and breathe deeply.


Our fearful thoughts and judgments soften and fade.

Each time we let the storyline go, we inch closer to wellbeing.


This is when PTSD is at its strongest, triggering the fight or flight mechanism. We fear triggers so much we avoid people and situations that ignite our trauma.


This is also the time when PTSD is at its most vulnerable.


If you can entertain the thought that PTSD is a bluff, that no real power or danger is present, healing is possible.


If we can stay present, focused, PTSD loses power.



You will discover no real danger exists inside our defense mechanism.



With practice we can learn to accept the anxious, scary mechanism as normal.



My fight or flight mechanism does not fire around my triggers anymore.


You can also integrate your trauma and calm your nervous system!

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Emotions are ephemeral, fleeting and transparent


Matthew Ricard: excerpt from “Happiness”


Despite their rich terminology for describing a wide range of mental events, the traditional languages of Buddhism have no word for emotion as such.


That may be because according to Buddhism all types of mental activity, including rational thought, are associated with some kind of feeling, be it one of pleasure, pain, or indifference.


And most affective states, such as love and hatred, arise together with discursive thought.


Rather than distinguishing between emotions and thoughts, Buddhism is more concerned with understanding which types of mental activity are conducive to one’s own and others’ well-being, and which are harmful, especially in the long run.



This is actually quite consistent with what cognitive science tells us about the brain and emotion.



Every region in the brain that has been identified with some aspect of emotion has also been identified with aspects of cognition.



There are no “emotion centers” in the brain.



The neuronal circuits that support emotions are completely intertwined with those that support cognition.


This anatomical arrangement is consistent with the Buddhist view that these processes cannot be separated: emotions appear in a context of action and thought, and almost never in isolation from the other aspects of our experience.



It should be noted that this runs counter to Freudian theory, which holds that powerful feelings of anger or jealousy, for instance, can arise without any particular cognitive or conceptual content.”

Dissociation: The most read and responded subject



This post and responses are in the header, Dissociation. This subject is by far the most read and commented topic.
Dissociation in its most basic description, is leaving this present moment to think about the past or future. It is an unreal practice, action. We create a parallel world, a world filled with treachery for our minds. What we create lacks reality! Dissociation takes us to a place, the past or future where happiness does not exist.


Dissociation is the only symptom we need to address. It is the linchpin, the king, the all-powerful symptom, the leader of the pack. Dissociation fuels trauma and all other symptoms. Without the duration of dissociation, the minute by minute consumption of emotional fear, the storyline of PTSD fades, deteriorates and eventually bores us. Hyper vigilance, flashbacks, anxiety and avoidance need dissociation.


Dissociation is complex, abstract, confusing and the biggest thief in our lives. It steals the only time we have to be happy. Judgment can devour every hour of the day. Judging me, worthy or unworthy, searching for approval, avoiding disapproval or criticism can dominate our landscape.


We become heat seeking missiles for pleasure. Sadness, awkward or suffering is avoided with the many dissociative games. Dissociation can engulf every breath, stir fear until it permeates our being. Dissociation grows with use. Each moment spent away from now harms us.

Complex PTSD, usually childhood abuse, complicates dissociation, our minds have not matured so abuse is mixed with development. Dissociation reaches a deeper level,of dysfunction and entanglement. Parts of our personality get stuck. Mp arts of us fight other parts, we feel conflicted. This is why.


Here are some of the complex symptoms of dissociation:

From Coping with Trauma-Related Dissociation:

Complex PTSD consists of six symptom clusters, which also have been described in terms of dissociation of personality. Of course, people who receive this diagnosis often also suffer from other problems as well, and as noted earlier, diagnostic categories may overlap significantly. The symptom clusters are as follows:

Alterations in Regulation of Affect ( Emotion ) and Impulses

Changes in Relationship with others

Somatic Symptoms

Changes in Meaning

Changes in the perception of Self

Changes in Attention and Consciousness

Alterations in regulation of affect(emotion) an impulse:

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