Posts Tagged ‘Attitude’

Dealing with Panic, worry and doubt



When panic arrives surrender to it!

Avoiding triggers at all cost describes most of our behavior. Unfortunately this fuels depression, anxiety and PTSD.

Fear can grow to massive proportions inside our head.

Our panic (Fear) for the most part is irrational.

We can only quarantine ourselves and abide by the guidelines, after that more worry and doubt harms us.

We have an opportunity in this crisis to change our relationship with worry, doubt and fear.

For once my daughter asked why I am so calm during this pandemic?

I am usually the one with my mind working overtime, worrying every minute, consumed.

Practice has enabled me to let the extra worry and doubt go.

It takes no more time, in fact it creates time wasted worrying.

It is simple as possible.

Specifically we accept, then surrender to our worry and panic when it arrives.

We slow our nervous system using the breath, then focus on calming the heart, listening for the quietest sound.

Negative thoughts and emotions are the Enemy.

We battle them by withholding attention, time in our consciousness.

Unless we are aware of these negative thoughts and emotions proliferating, we suffer.

Paying attention takes no more time and costs nothing.

Awareness is always first, followed by acceptance then surrendering everything we fear and deny.

Lots of free time and opportunity.

Choices we make will determine the next few months.





I visualize slowing my ♥️ heart way down



At times my meditation focuses on the physical impact of the breath. I let thoughts and emotions fade on their own without attention.

Slowing the breath, slows the heart rate and blood pressure, calms the nervous system. Muscles relax, gravity increases as we let go.

I know this is the safest, most secure place I can be. My inner guide has more control during my meditative sits.

Surrendering has become second nature when I meditate.

I try to stop my heart by being as quiet as possible. All my focus centers on my body sensations and sounds.

My hearing searches for the sound of the heartbeat, the sound of an inhale and exhale.

I hear an orchestra playing inside my head at times, listening inside my eardrums. The body makes sounds, listen intently, concentrate.

The inner world is mysterious.

My words can not relay the power held within this world.

It must be experienced.

Sit quietly today, explore your inner world.

Hard to say, you have no time to try during this quarantine.



The faster the mind goes, the more awareness is lost!

Pixabay: alan9187



Notice the speed of your mind, the speed at which thoughts arrive, the speed of your nervous system and the strength of our emotions.

This maybe an extended quarantine, so having the ability to let the noise, worry and fear go, is of great benefit.

Have gratitude, many , many more people are suffering around the world.

I have doubt, worry and fear but I refuse to give it more attention. Limit the noise, these distractions.

Realize worry and doubt compromises our wellbeing, weakens our immune system and lets our “Ego” control the mind.

These are simple battles that change our mindset.

Discount any strong emotions for a month, play defense.

Defense is making no decisions, giving no weight to negativity or chaos.

We just let the noise go, then follow our senses to this present moment.

In this moment, right now, I can be happy or at least enjoy the beautiful tree blooming.

If we let worry nullify nature and any positivity, we will suffer.

We need to stay present so much more now. Refuse to ruminate about the past or worry about the future.

Until new information comes out in this pandemic, no need for me to think about it.

When something changes, I will adapt but as of now, Surviving means letting go and being present.

These are simple actions that change everything.

We do not have to be perfect but we can catch ourselves lost in worry, then adjust and let go.

Think of ways to helps others, spreading kindness in creative ways.

We have the internet to reach out and spread kindness.

Many choices during this pandemic.



How could I have known?




Throughout childhood my fear and anxiety accompanied me. In high school, my stomach made me sick from the constant abuse.

This dangerous existence facilitated the dumping of cortisol and adrenaline everyday.

My normal was anything but normal.

How could I know? I had never felt my nervous system without those neurotoxins present.

This last week I have experienced my system as calm as ever in my life.

My focus has been concentrated on the slightest change in my fear drugs, cortisol and adrenaline.

I have been in observer role this week, detached, neutral, with as little judgment as possible.

With each observation, I see how my Ego feels slighted, followed by an emotional response.

Taking a step back, I see how easily these fear drugs dissipate when you break the Egos grip.

I never knew life could be this calm.

These fear drugs have caused turmoil in my life.

We can always learn and improve.

It is the journey that makes life worthwhile not the destination.



ULTIMATE SOLITUDE: “Focused and Fearless”




“The culmination of seclusion goes far beyond a quiet state of mind.The Buddha described true seclusion as an experience that is free from attachment. In a discussion with a monk named Elder, he said,

“And how, Elder, is dwelling alone fulfilled in detail?

Here, Elder, what lies in the past has been abandoned, what lies in the future has been relinquished, and desire and lust for present forms of individual existence has been thoroughly removed. It is in such a way, Elder, that dwelling alone is fulfilled in detail.”

Thus, inner seclusion is a way of being that is freed from attachment to past, future, and even present perceptions.

Consciousness ceases to take its stand on forms, feelings, perceptions, or thoughts.

Nothing is taken up as a basis upon which to construct personal identity.

This realization of the unfabricated nature of things brings the uncluttered mind to perfection.

We don’t just clear away physical and mental rubbish, and then rest in that neat and tidy mental space.

The very constituents of personality are exposed as utterly empty.

There is nothing there to hold, and no one to try.

Nothing exists that would structure a relationship between assumed constructs of I and you, this and that, there and here, past and future.”



What is Layering?… Addiction to Excitement / Inner Drug Store 101



From “Adult Children of Alcoholics”

Layering is subconsciously taking multiple minor, addictive/distractive substances and blending them together to get a bigger hit of anxiety.

A hit which is available to us 24 hours a day, seven days a week.

We can create a hormonal symphony to try to escape from our lives and our feelings. We create a “normal” biochemical state that is anything but beneficial.

It is a masterful distraction from our internal pain.

Some examples:

● Our romantic relationship is dramatic and unstable.

● We put off filing our tax return until the very last moment.

● We may live paycheck to paycheck. If we get a raise, we may simply start spending more money so we continue to live paycheck to paycheck.

● We drive too close to the person ahead of us on the freeway.

● We are having an affair with our best friend’s spouse, threatening both our marriage and the relationship with our best friend.

● We would feel better about ourselves if we could just afford to buy (fill in the blank).

● We either tend to stay “busy “with lots of scheduled activities, or we stay isolated at home.

● Rather than wake up 10 minutes earlier in the morning, we often risk being late to work.

● We compulsively try to rescue a friend, then may flip to anger or victimhood if we feel they don’t appreciate us enough.

● Our inner critic berates us for a minor mistake we made.

● We may binge watch TV.

● We tend to take responsibility for other people’s feelings.

● We often check social media even though we may end up feeling worse after we do because we just don’t measure up to others.

● We wish we could talk to someone in our fellowship about all this, but we can’t pick up the phone to call — so we belittle ourselves for that.

● Our boss berates us again and we think, again, about finding a new job; but we never look for one.

● We focus on others, using gossip and judgment rather than focusing on improving ourselves.

● We eat something full of sugar and fat, then beat ourselves up for doing it.

We compound and layer the stressors. When one drops off (like we finally file our tax return) we add another one or two. By layering, we never risk having no excitement in our lives.

The state of being distracted can become an addiction.

The Perfect Storm:

When we layer enough things, we may end up over-stimulating ourselves, perhaps bringing on an emotional crash.

“For those habituated to high levels of internal stress since early childhood, it is the absence of stress that creates unease, evoking boredom and a sense of meaninglessness.

People may become addicted to their own stress hormones, adrenaline and cortisol.

To such persons stress feels desirable, while the absence of it feels like something to be avoided.” (Hans Selye)



This fictitious character was created for identity, a bit player, not a starring role in our life.

Pixabay: makeitclear / 6 images



My Ego, my definition: He is the one who thinks, who gets angry, pissed, envious, even adolescent, craving approval, chasing pleasure.

A creative idea sprung forward. Why not treat my Ego like a ventriloquist dummy, an appendage type puppet.

Refer to him in the third person, an adolescent personality, a virtual emotional mini-me.

This fictitious character was created for identity, a bit player, not a starring role in our life.

Discount emotions, focus, explore below the surface, life is much, much deeper, if you just let go and observe.

That dummy can occupy way to much of our life.

Realize that dummy never feels equal to any other dummy he meets.

That dummy craves superiority, dominance, adulation.

Left in control, this dummy will chase pleasure (approval, status, sexual gratification, power and dominance) and avoid the awkward or unpleasant.

Suffering is where this dummy will lead us.

Happiness will be a stranger if our Ego is in control.

Explore the minds patterns, the “Egos” desires, if you want to be free, happy or alive.




%d bloggers like this: