Posts Tagged ‘Anxiety’

Being a mindfulness teacher

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Being a mindfulness teacher has brought many challenges, many unexpected.

After my first month, I settled in, changing focus from my presentation skills to the needs of the group.

My first observation was few applied themselves or started a mindfulness practice.

I saw first hand how hard change was, almost impossible for many.

Second, my words were the same, why did a few improve and others continued to suffer?

Small, concrete actions helped most. Abstract ideas in the future sounded important but garnered little action.

Little homework projects like spotting the “Ego” during the day or noticing the inner critic helped them.

Finite successes do wonders for the mind, confidence, taking more action.

Those who started a practice learned to let thought and emotion fade, while they explored the inner world, our body sensations.

The External world brings challenges, however it is our reaction that decides our fate.

We test our focus bringing up situations that piss us off, whether it be critical comments, obnoxious drivers or a colleague at work.

Those emotions are given attention for a couples of minutes to empower them.

Next we meditate, focus on the breath, then let thought and emotion fade. In time all could accomplish this task.

This is practice to face our big fears, traumas and anxieties later on.

Small Actions like this have made an impact.



The mind is far more powerful focused, empty of thought, than when it is thinking.



The mind is far more powerful focused, empty of thought, than when it is thinking.

Ask an enlightened monk, where does the power of mind reside, in thinking or in emptiness?

With severe childhood PTSD my minds thinking brought unbelievable suffering.

Sitting quietly, focused on my breath and internal body sensations, my mind repaired itself.

The thinking side of the mind is wonderful when I direct my thoughts with a purpose.

Letting the mind wander, collects negative thoughts like a magnet attracts metal objects.

Focused, we can choose what thoughts we entertain or let them fade away.

Optimum function lets all thoughts fade in favor of just being here, present and aware.

Seems boring and mundane because it is not an intellectual property.

The words mean nothing, the action of doing contains the magical fairy dust.

We can change the way our mind handles thoughts and emotions.

If life is great then ignore this, if not you need to try something different.



After basic needs are fulfilled, what is your strongest desire (need)?

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After basic needs are fulfilled, what is your strongest desire (need)?


After inventory, how do you rank your resources?


These two answers probably determine your life’s path.


How do I convey the idea that the mind is more valuable than all other resources combined, multiplied by a 1,000,000.


The mind controls all resources, grants power and life or withholds power to extinguish unwanted things.


The mind is far more powerful focused, empty of thought, than when it is thinking.


Thought is transparent, our Aware Presence is the only real thing we can experience.


How would life change if all worry, doubt and fear subsided?


Much of my self talk and rumination has died a slow death of neglect.


My strengths are willpower and persistence.


I show up and take action everyday, that has transformed my thought process.


It has changed nothing external, life’s challenges remain, my mind plays a different game now.



how we think we should be

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Excerpt from the book “The Unbelievable Happiness of What Is”

“A common Zen teaching describes the sage as a person of no rank.

This is a description of someone who isn’t identified.

Again, that doesn’t mean the sage has no personality.

Awakened people can have powerful personalities that from the outside may even appear stronger than they were before awakening.

No longer restricted by their beliefs or ideas about how they should be,

or by worries about how others

think they should be,

they are free simply to show up fully and authentically as they actually are.”



My two cents: Our goal is to show up empty of thought, focused like a laser, relaxed and aware.

We waste so much time worrying about how to fit in, be accepted, then gain approval.

Approval has nothing to do with happiness.

Another Acceptance post

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Acceptance was difficult for me. Struggling to accept who I was, became extremely arduous.

How do you accept a damaged self image, an abusive childhood, in this moment? I struggled.

I avoided, tried to fix me and suffering ensued.

As most humans, I thought change was needed, I could achieve something to gain happiness in the future.

Happiness only happens in one time zone, NOW!

Happiness is impossible to experience in the future.

So we trade our only chance for happiness in for some euphoric prize in the future.

Realize this is a mirage created by our “Ego” craving control of our body.

Accept all of you, grow gratitude and giving, then let go and enjoy the moment, it is all there is.

Whether we accept ourselves totally or live a life of worry or doubt, death visits all of us.

We are here to pursue happiness.

Happiness contains acceptance, gratitude, giving and a focused empty mind.

It’s about fully entering into our experience—residing in the physical reality of the present moment.



Lets get Creative: The Ego as Ventriloquist Dummy

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My Ego, my definition: He is the one who thinks, who gets angry, pissed, envious, even adolescent, craving approval, chasing pleasure.

A creative idea sprung forward. Why not treat my Ego like a ventriloquist dummy, an appendage type puppet.

Refer to him in the third person, an adolescent character, a virtual mini-me.

This fictitious character was created for identity, a bit player, not a starring role in our life.

Discount emotions, focus, explore below the surface, life is much, much deeper, if you just let go and observe.

That dummy can occupy way to much of our life.

Realize that dummy never feels equal to any other dummy he meets.

That dummy craves superiority, dominance, adulation.

My dummies cravings bring suffering and anguish.

Happiness is not connected with our Ego.



The Big Lie about Antidepressants!



Has it ever been proven that a pill, an antidepressant healed anyone suffering from depression. Current commercials have a doctor agreeing that many who take antidepressants are still depressed.

His solution is a booster pill for the original antidepressant.

Antidepressants can give some relief, in fact, their purpose is to allow us to do the work of healing depression.

No pill can take away those negative, unworthy, hopeless thoughts.

We would not have therapists if pills could heal disorders.

We have general physicians passing out antidepressants like candy to depressed housewives.

Antidepressants are weird drugs that take time to work and have enormous side effects. We often do not look at the interactions of other prescriptions we are taking.

I bet you have a friend on antidepressants. I bet he/she still has depressive issues.



This is the ad for Rexulti: a booster for your antidepressant

“You shouldn’t have to give up the progress you may have already made with your current antidepressant.

REXULTI is for people who’ve been on an antidepressant for at least 8 weeks and are still experiencing symptoms of depression. When taken with your antidepressant, REXULTI may help you feel better by reducing symptoms of depression. Ask your doctor if REXULTI is right for you.”

Side effects

it is not known if REXULTI is safe and effective in people under 18 years of age.


Increased risk of death in elderly people with dementia-related psychosis. Medicines like REXULTI can raise the risk of death in elderly who have lost touch with reality (psychosis) due to confusion and memory loss (dementia). REXULTI is not approved for the treatment of patients with dementia-related psychosis.

Antidepressant medicines may increase suicidal thoughts or actions in some children, teenagers, or young adults within the first few months of treatment. Depression and other serious mental illnesses are the most important causes of suicidal thoughts or actions. Some people may have a particularly high risk of having suicidal thoughts or actions. Patients on antidepressants and their families or caregivers should watch for new or worsening depression symptoms, especially sudden changes in mood, behaviors, thoughts, or feelings. This is very important when an antidepressant medicine is started or when the dose is changed. Report any changes in these symptoms immediately to the doctor. REXULTI is not approved for the treatment of people younger than 18 years of age.

Do not take REXULTI if you are allergic to brexpiprazole or any of the ingredients in REXULTI. Allergic reactions have included rash, facial swelling, hives and itching, and anaphylaxis, which may include difficulty breathing, tightness in the chest, and swelling of the mouth, face, lips, or tongue.

REXULTI may cause serious side effects, including:

Stroke in elderly people (cerebrovascular problems) that can lead to death.

Neuroleptic Malignant Syndrome (NMS): Tell your healthcare provider right away if you have some or all of the following symptoms: high fever, stiff muscles, confusion, sweating, changes in pulse, heart rate, and blood pressure. These may be symptoms of a rare and serious condition that can lead to death. Call your healthcare provider right away if you have any of these symptoms.

Uncontrolled body movements (tardive dyskinesia). REXULTI may cause movements that you cannot control in your face, tongue or other body parts. Tardive dyskinesia may not go away, even if you stop taking REXULTI. Tardive dyskinesia may also start after you stop taking REXULTI.

Problems with your metabolism such as:

high blood sugar (hyperglycemia): Increases in blood sugar can happen in some people who take REXULTI. Extremely high blood sugar can lead to coma or death. If you have diabetes or risk factors for diabetes (such as being overweight or having a family history of diabetes), your healthcare provider should check your blood sugar before you start taking REXULTI and during your treatment.

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