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Sunday morning Insights

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Sufferers of PTSD, depression or other disorders are generally confused and anxious.

Fear mixed with intense anxiety stops the mind from functioning properly.

We sense danger from a perceived lethal threat. We want to escape as quickly as possible, our defense mechanism has complete control.

Unfortunately, going out in public, say to a restaurant, would fire my fight or flight mechanism without my consent.

Somehow these situations linked to my abusive childhood. Our triggers seem to pick their own scenario.

Cognitively I understood no real danger existed, my defense mechanism did not agree.

Healing for me, consisted of sitting calmly, focused on my breath, as my nervous system fired violently.

My focus released the scary thoughts, then concentrated on the connected body sensations. For me, my solar plexus is where my trauma manifested inside the body.

Making friends with the bodies nervous system, intimately knowing (being with) the sensations, integrated my trauma.

Being able to build focus on the breath is body armor for the anxiety disorders.

The breath controls our nervous system and heavily influences our defense mechanism.

Navy Seals are taught to dissipate fear by extending their exhales.

Cortisol and adrenaline can be used for fuel instead of being afraid or triggered.

PTSD has access to the switch firing our fight or flight mechanism, we have final control of our nervous system.

Remember trauma is stored in the right hemisphere, inside our amygdala.

We can not access stored trauma consciously.

Meditation grants us direct access to our stored trauma.

No miracle just current neuroscience.



Never give up, Never give in, We control only Attitude and Effort!n

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Growing up in the violence of a critical narcissistic father, my self worth was heavily damaged.

There was no escape, my abuser was a giant, I was helpless, I was a thing to him. He wanted to own me, control me, use me for his gratification as a star athlete.

My father coveted my being, my soul, to fill the void in his life. As a child, I imagined this was how everyone was raised.

You would think this was a life sentence of suffering for that little boy, but you would be wrong. I always knew something was wrong, that immense unworthy feeling never left my side.

My trauma lay dormant until a crisis in my life at age 58, then all hell broke loose.

Finally a therapist diagnosed me with C-PTSD.

I had an opponent, an antagonist to face, an opportunity to heal had arrived.

The ghost that haunted my life came into the light.

Fear had a name, PTSD.

PTSD became my opponent.

Just like the jock I am, a plan of attack was charted and intense daily action was taken.

Being able to let the long term goals alone, allowed me to enter the process more freely.

Attitude and Effort is what I brought everyday to my healing.

I was retired, so healing became my full time job.

Five hours of meditating, couple hours of reading, one hour of aerobic exercise, and constant application filled each day.

I was a professional athlete, so using my strengths seemed logical.

Use your strengths and modify any therapy to fit you.

Never give up, never give in, we control our attitude and effort.

Be positive, be inspired to give all our effort.

Relax, enjoy life, smile, you have done your best.


The Connection Between PTSD and Suicide By Matthew Tull, PhD Updated September 02, 2019

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“In the United States, more than 40,000 people commit suicide each year. Although women attempt suicide more so than men, men are more likely to succeed in killing themselves during a suicide attempt. In addition, people who have experienced a traumatic event and/or have post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) may be more likely to attempt suicide.

Trauma, PTSD, and Suicide

In a survey of 5,877 people across the United States, it was found that people who had experienced physical or sexual assault in their life also had a high likelihood of attempting to take their own life at some point:

Nearly 22% of people who had been raped had also attempted suicide at some point in their life.

Approximately 23% of people who had experienced a physical assault had also attempted suicide at some point in their life.

These rates of suicide attempts increased considerably among people who had experienced multiple incidents of sexual (42.9%) or physical assault (73.5%). They also found that a history of sexual molestation, physical abuse as a child, and neglect as a child were associated with high rates of suicide attempts (17.4% to 23.9%)

People with a diagnosis of PTSD are also at greater risk to attempt suicide. Among people who have had a diagnosis of PTSD at some point in their lifetime, approximately 27% have also attempted suicide.

There Is Hope: Seeking Help

Experiencing a traumatic event and/or developing PTSD can have a tremendous impact on a person’s life. The symptoms of PTSD can make a person feel constantly afraid and isolated. In addition, depression is common following a traumatic event and among people with PTSD.

A person may feel as though there is no hope or escape from their symptoms, leading them to contemplate suicide.

It is important to realize that even though it may feel as though there is no hope, recovery and healing is possible. If you are having thoughts of ending your life or if you know someone who is having these thoughts, it is important to seek help as soon as possible.”

Does your life with Chronic Pain feel like this?



My chronic pain was like the wind, invisible, powerful and relentless at times.

How was I going to battle such a ghost. I named my pain Mr P. after the old Happy Days show, Mr. C.

Mr. P. Was my nemesis when I hiked. Mr. P. wanted to stop my legs from moving, from confronting my fear, from taking control of my mind back.

My mindset was centered around my greatest strength, my willpower, determination. Always incorporate your strengths as part of your solutions.

My mindset as usual, a jock accepts the challenge before him/her. No way was Pain going stop my legs from moving!

My exercise routine became an emotional battle between pain and my will.

In a way it was exhilarating. I convinced myself not many humans could hike in such pain day after day.

We jocks always imagined being at bat with the bases loaded, two outs bottom of ninth, game seven of World Series. This was my chronic pain version.

Visualization is powerful. I would imagine myself in “The Last of the Mohicans” running with Hawkeye, running for our life.

Music gave me a beat that I could synchronize my legs with. My legs would move to a beat when they were exhausted, ready to quit.

Chronic pain became a friend. Adversity makes us stronger.

Chronic pain strengthened my meditation practice. I truly learned how to focus and dissipate my pain level.

Pain constricted, became much more bearable, then faded as months passed. Aerobic exercise and meditation were my tools.

I would set in the middle of my pain with my breath, no judgments just observing.

My breath could dissipate my pain. My familiarity allowed me to sit calmly inside my pain. My pain received no energy from fear, attention or thought.

After a few years I had compartmentalzed my chronic pain.

Acute pain is a different animal.

Pain eats energy but does not touch my soul, or my enthusiasm for life.



Effort and Attitude



If we must judge ourselves, base your assessment on the effort you give.

Do you give all out effort, try to practice and live fully?

If so relax and enjoy the journey.

Results are external and out of our control.

We control our effort and attitude.

Be present, be positive and look for opportunity.

Let go of the rest.



Healing is not a spectator sport



If we want to heal, daily work is necessary.

All my reading and blogging blessed me with a direction and tools, not healing.

Healing came with application and daily practice.

Simple, small, concrete tasks repeated daily, benefitted me the most.

Having a purpose was extremely important.

Believing I could heal or at least battle everyday with a good attitude was important.

Being humble was part of my journey.

Letting go of the narrative about I, me, mine needing importance and approval was important.

I had to train my mind to focus and let go.

This is the path to freedom.



Healing takes action not thought

“Rule of survival: Pack your own parachute.”


T.L. Hakala
My two cents: We are responsible for our own happiness or suffering.



Taking responsibility for healing or happiness comes with daily effort and action.



Thinking about healing or being happy does not influence our condition.



Doing nothing brings suffering. PTSD grows as time passes, gains strength and becomes more debilitating. Depression grows with isolation and inaction.



Action is closer to life, sedentary closer to death.



Change is inevitable, so adapting, taking action is part of living fully.



Have a daily practice plan (action not reading or thinking) whether you devote 15 minutes or 60 minutes a day.


Add strenuous aerobic exercise to flush the toxins, to secrete endorphins to soothe our pains and to bring accomplishment to both mind and body.

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