Whose afraid of a Body system, revised


Circulatory system: Carries oxygenated blood throughout the body.



Respiratory system: Exchanges life giving oxygen and eliminates carbon dioxide.



Nervous system: part of it; Adrenal response mechanism is tasked with defence, preparing us for a perceived lethal threat.



None of these systems have fear inside the mechanism.


I am not afraid of my circulatory system or my respiratory system!


Why am I afraid of my nervous system then?


Or the adrenal response mechanism (fight, flight or freeze mechanism).






It does not have fear inside it; we add our own fear with a storyline.



We can train the mind to be friends with our nervous system.


That’s part of what a mindfulness practice looks like.



Plus emotional regulation as a bonus.

Path in Sequence



“The first step toward change is awareness.

The second step is acceptance.

– Nathaniel Branden
My two cents: The path in sequence;


Awareness:    We have to see reality, the real world, how we fit in. Attention is placed on how our mind functions, how it interacts with our body mechanisms. We need to see ourselves without the bias of the “Ego’s” judgments. With 60,000 thoughts passing through our consciousness daily, awareness is key for perspective and proper navigation.



Acceptance: Optimum acceptance would have us accepting everything about us right here, right now. There is nothing we can attain, accomplish or possess in the future that has any permanence or connection with happiness. We are complete, whole, capable of experiencing enormous happiness right now. Everything we need is available in this next breath.

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Anxiety and Vulnerability: “The Need to Please: Mindfulness Skill to gain freedom from People Pleasing and Approval Seeking”: Micki Fine

A primary belief in the people-pleasing cycle is that bad things will happen if you don’t satisfy others.


Therefore, it’s understandable that you may feel fraught with anxiety and vulnerability.



The combination of vulnerability arising from the desperate desire for love, fears of not receiving it, and pervasive feelings of unworthiness and unlovability are a setup for pervasive anxiety.



Furthermore, the desire for unconditional acceptance and the fear of being seen exactly as you are work in opposition to each other, creating an anxiety-inducing internal conflict.


Because the natural reaction is to push difficult experiences away, most of these thoughts and feelings go unrecognized, which can prime you for more anxiety when they threaten to arise into consciousness.


One way to distance yourself from these feelings is continuing to focus on others and what they might want or need.



When anxiety arises, we aren’t in the present moment.



When we feel vulnerable, our focus narrows in on the perceived danger, and we feel compelled to fight, flee, or freeze.



Moreover, when we’re aware of anxious thoughts and feelings, we often react with negative criticism toward ourselves, which intensifies our reactions.



This is why it can be so difficult to extricate ourselves from the grip of anxiety and vulnerability.




Let us resist judging or comparing ourself this week.


Instead we will let those thoughts go and henceforth, bring gratitude and kindness to our core.


Can you be vulnerable when scared by triggers? We need skills to be confident.


We will inhabit our heart instead of our brain for a much needed break.


The “Ego” battles for domination of every breath. That is a fact.


Right below the surface, we either decide to engage that doubt, fear and unworthy being or let it all go.

We engage the heart, our soul, our core, when the cognitive engine, the “Ego” with its never ending desire pulls at us.


Life is complicated when we judge and compare, easy when we let go and stay present.


Simple is not easy, it is the path less traveled.

“People exposed to chronic or repeated traumatic events may also lose faith in humanity or have a sense of hopelessness about the future.” By Matthew Tull



My two cents: I was ashamed to admit my feelings of hopelessness to myself or anyone else. It felt like a glaring character flaw, a damaged human being to me.


My childhood was dominated by hopelessness in the face of my narcissistic caregiver. There was no way to win, to be left alone, to escape the abuse.


To a child a parent can be a giant, a monster. My abuse started at an early age before my brain had a chance to develop.


Hopelessness and helplessness can be awakened by stress, loss and tragedy.


My wellbeing depends on my awareness and mindfulness skills.


Dissociation in its most basic description, is leaving this present moment to think about the past or future


Dissociation leads me towards hopelessness, inflames doubt, worry, fear, anxiety and anger inside me. Triggers explode if our PTSD is active.


Staying present extinguishes that flame.


Visually, I have learned to look and see without judgment as I focus intently on my breath.


One path leads to suffering, the other brings you to this present moment.

This present moment is all we have, then we move to the next moment, nothing more.

Symptoms of Complex PTSD


By Matthew Tull, PhD:


“Emotion Regulation Problems: People with Complex PTSD experience difficulties managing their emotions. They may experience severe depression, thoughts of suicide, or have difficulties controlling their anger.


Changes in Consciousness: Following exposure to a chronic traumatic event, a person may repress memories of the traumatic event, experience flashbacks, or experience dissociation.


Changes in How a Person Views Themselves: Symptoms in this category include feelings of helplessness, shame, guilt, or feeling detached and different from others.


Changes in How the Victim Views the Perpetrator: A person with Complex PTSD may feel like he has no power over a perpetrator (the perpetrator has complete power in a relationship). In Complex PTSD, people might also become preoccupied with their relationship with a perpetrator (for example, constant thoughts of wanting revenge).



Changes in Personal Relationships: These symptoms include problems with relationships, such as isolating oneself or being distrusting of others.



Changes in How One Views the World:   People exposed to chronic or repeated traumatic events may also lose faith in humanity or have a sense of hopelessness about the future.”

My two cents:    Changes in How one views the world and themselves ring true for me!




Practical Shit for survival

Consider we have 60,000 thoughts a day on average. In fact during waking hours, that is more than one every second.



So in the last minute, 60 thoughts arrived. We have no clue what most of them are. Some or maybe all are conjecture, worthless, unimportant, distant, or imaginary.


Maybe most thoughts are an unattended mind process that has nothing to do with living fully, being happy, or having a healthy mind!


Amazing if we could see these thoughts are bullshit.


Why do we pick certain ones, negative or unworthy ones so often. If something stressful happens, a failure at work or a big loss, that old tape of not good enough, that unworthy ego dominates.


We do have choices.


We can focus on our breath, slowing the mind down, allowing us to let go and be present.



It takes less than 10 focused, elongated breaths to come back to here and now, empty, open, safe.


What holds you back from taking action.


Words and thoughts heal nothing.

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