Healing Model

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Healing has so many avenues, so many different therapies, so many confusing symptoms, ideas and mind functions, that navigating toward the best solution seems daunting. I have faced this dilemma, wasted my time, got lost, using the hit and miss method.
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Each therapist will have a different way, depending on their schooling, life experience, personal beliefs and successes. Nothing is standardized except maybe the DSM manual for insurance purposes. No statistics can I find, that say this works better, or this combination is best. There is no effort to even educate what we can do, to just be mentally healthy.
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I have tried EFT, TFT, EMDR, hypnosis, cranial sacral, acupuncture, CBT, ACT, EDIT, holistic, two intuitives etc. Everyone except a proctologist and maybe that would have helped. Maybe I should have tried a comedian.
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My long journey educated me on what works, what is available and all the gaps facing us. When you discover that you have PTSD, it can be months of trying to figure out what it is and what to do. The symptoms can keep us from seeking help.
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This is how my specific program developed, as I was healing, and then as I was obsessed with finding a better way out. My evaluation included the latest brain science, the cutting edge therapies, the exploration of survivor traits, the mindfulness (meditation) connection, the lack of focus on the body (exercise), the absence of daily support, and the never mentioned urgency that was missing entirely.
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My goal was to assemble just the needed parts, the basics, the bare minimal action needed and eliminate the rest. Streamlining the journey, let me place all my energy in a small area. This was the secret to collapsing traumas grasp.

So here goes with my simple plan. Let me preface with a few major ideas we will adopt going forward. Failure is impossible. We are responsible for one thing, our total effort. Results are far beyond our control and miles above our pay grade. We have plenty to stop worrying about without adding thoughts about past things.

From Rick Hanson in his game changing book Buddhas Brain, he proves we construct the ego out of random past memories, woven into a believable narrative. The question of “Who am I” has no subject. We make the person so we have identity, not to serve him/her. The ego is not who we are. The ego in comparison to the mind is similar to a golf ball floating in a swimming pool. We are perfect without anyones approval or disapproval. Words, thoughts or ideas, even actions do not change this fact. Our self worth is untouchable, we are perfect all of us.
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The power of our organism is the true self. Thoughts do not have any power. The adrenal stress response or the fight or flight mechanism supplies the drugs that we feel exploding. The large jolt that rocks our world from time to time is cortisol mixed with adrenaline a pain killer and increased respiratory, BP heart rate escalations of defense or offenses. No defenses for us, we avoid and dissociate not attack.

Okay, here we go. First, let us correct our self talk. I did not realize the power this has. Alex, would have this small little snide put down of himself, when he would leave. Finally, he agreed to drop that negative hit on himself. It was immediate, the next day, something had shifted. For the first time, the whole mind body had all the oars in the water, as a complete unit. He stopped going sideways and his practice blossomed from there.

Daily short recitals of positive supportive affirmations felt strange, uncomfortable for me. I did not believe these glowing things about myself. I felt like an ass doing this, but healing was a million times the desire for me, so I recorded mine. It was easier to play them back. In time, I somehow started to believe some of those damn things. I was amazed. That computer left brain could be programmed, maybe it feels awkward but undeniable it had worked. Within a month, my self image turned more and more positive.

I strive with my entire being to accept all of me and my situation in this current moment. I let go, accept and surrender to my fears.

Next we roll out our air craft carrier of defense. The Breathing Track will develop our focus. We will apply this focus where trauma is the most powerful and the most vulnerable. It is at the trigger point, the adrenal stress mechanism firing, the fight or flight mechanism going off that we look to apply this model. We build focus when we are calm for the time when all hell brakes loose.

My model is simple, concrete, immediate and indestructible with practice. If we were to construct a model for meditating the Breathing track would have all these characteristics. We are building focus on the breath strong enough to withstand the fight or flight mechanism exploding. We are constructing our focus, our breath, our model to slow down, activating the parasympathetic nervous system, the brakes.

The breath can control our nervous system. We can activate the sympathetic nervous system,,prepare for rigorous sporting events or prepare for battle from a lethal threat. We can deplete some of that powerful jolt we feel when fear explodes and lights up our solar plexus.

This is the event we are preparing for with the breathing track. We want to endure, to stay present, to step back and follow the body sensations instead of the crazy emotional storyline. Our first reaction is to avoid, run away, dissociate, grasp our fear and freeze.

So, now, we have a defined goal, a defined process, a defined model (breathing track. Nothing is abstract. It is immeditae, concrete, we can touch, follow, trace and envision our breath. We can follow along on the breathing track model.

Healing and finding happiness are the same journey, we sit and focus on the breath, let go of judgment and accept all before us. It is the same whether healing or chasing eternal happiness.

So in its basic form, we become the breath on the breathing track. If we can envision the breathing track being a flashing neon sign that we ride as it flows from bottom right corner, upward, the inhale as we take a focused breath. We are riding a car on a carnival ride as we breathe, flowing like on a river,,gently gliding, then pausing. We become the breath and practice slowing it down while emptying the mind of thought and judgment.

Yes, it does not happen immediately or easily. This breathing track model will eliminate the spaces where thought enters and makes focus much easier. I have taken away all the abstract parts of meditating. It takes time for the mind to feel comfortable going slow and being empty, but it can and will learn to adapt.

This is the basic skill then. We are on the breathing track, slowing down, letting go, then we add listening. Listen for the lowest decibel sound in the room, then go beneath it. Listen internally between your ears. Listen for that internal symphony our bodies produce.

We practice this skill over and over. When we find ourselves involved in thought, we gently come back to the breathing track and focus. It is like taking coal and making a diamond.

Healing is not complex and complex therapies are not efficient. I found PTSD could not play defence. If I could stay present when my triggers fired, PTSD collapsed. PTSD was a bluff of implicit memory. No real danger or power could be found behind all the fearful storylines.

No harm ever materialized after a trigger. Things would calm and life would continue. Bring awareness to your trigger spaces. Watch if any lasting harm ensues a trigger. Build your focus everyday. Go towards your fears, the trigger point. Hunt down your remaining trauma triggers and extinguish them.

We can free ourselves and find happiness. This is what I believe. Please sit, let go, accept and smile, life is going to open up soon for you.

A parable, simplify, simplify:

“Our life is

frittered away

by detail.

Simplify,

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Henry David Thoreau
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Our breath

the simplest

of life forces,

The most immediate

The most dire (oxygen needed to live)

The control centre of the nervous centre

The purifier of stress, judgment and trauma

Has access to the other side, a door ( below the ego)

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40 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by alex on December 2, 2011 at 9:44 pm

    I can attest that these practices will bring one to a new life of Happiness and Relief – Many Thanks marty!!!

  2. Why can I not click LIKE?!
    Marty, I cannot even add anything to this. You said everything, perfectly. And this is so important to me:
    “Failure is impossible. We are responsible for one thing, our total effort.”
    For the first time in my life I do not feel I need to search endlessly for what else is out there so I can heal. I know I have found it. In this blog.
    Thank you Marty.

  3. Posted by monica on February 27, 2012 at 3:27 am

    What a hopeful explaination to a very overwhelming diagnosis. Very grateful for this blog. Full of everday nuggets of help.

  4. Welcome Monica and hope to hear about your journey and successes.

    Thank for the compliment and here is wishing you all the healing to uncover the perfect you, tranquil and just calm, relaxed without anxiety, worry or guilt.

    It will shift and you will heal,if you do the work like the rest of us.

    Expect to be better and see opportunity and some happiness.

  5. Thank you for this article and for your blog. I’m just at the beginning of my journey of dealing with PTSD. It’s incredibly hard and can feel very lonely. Your blog is very informative, plus your personal journey helps to understand this condition better. I’m so glad I came across your blog, will be checking it daily. Thank you!

  6. Your welcome and feel free to ask questions. This Issa blog for daily support as you take action. My blog is a healing blog not some discussion board for ideas.

    I do tis to help others take action and give some pointers and direction.

    Good luck and good healing.

  7. I am so glad I found your blog. Thank you for blogging and sharing your journey to recovery! I am hoping to do the same. And this is a big help!

  8. Great to hear. Welcome and happy healing. it takes a daily routine and I have distilled it down to just necessities. GoodLuch

    Marty

  9. happy to find you…came via Namaste Inc…I’m learning to heal my own complex PTSD…(iatrogenic in nature, but very similar, nonetheless)

  10. Welcome, I will check it out.

  11. check what out? Namaste Inc? they nominated you for an award and I came from that link…Jennifer is a wonderful blogger, so yes, do check it out…my blog is Beyond Meds… 🙂

  12. I am good friends with Jenifer. I will check out your blog.

  13. Posted by maggiefortier on August 8, 2012 at 9:26 pm

    dear marty,
    i read some parts of your blog and think it is wonderful. i suffered from ptsd, sometimes still do. actually, i wanted to comment on that. i suffer in one area so badly, and wouldn’t you know, i have a friend who suffers in same area, though we like the same things,a nd so when we want to get together, we become immobile and dumb. i can’t say exactly what goes on on his end, but on yours, it feels like all out hell. it takes u hours sometimes to recover from the onslaught of emotional lockdown and the feelings of humiliation afterwards. i think he has same violent reaction to his own lockdown. so we’ve tried talking about it and he isn’t able to discuss it. (i guess my maternal instincts overcome my dissocative shriveling faster than his) . do you have any experience with this sort of PTSD between two people. do you have any ideas what we could do about it? i kindof feel like we need a 12 step for both ptsd addicts and ptsd for codependents. please let me know what you think if you can. and keep up the good work.

  14. Thank you for sharing.

    We all focus or restrict our lives to such a narrow scope. I was hinding in my garage for six Months. Life was not exciting but terror of the unknown overwhelmed my nervous system.

    When the two of you get together, you think of how many triggers you share. your friend reminds you of your trauma and triggers will happen between both of you until o heal.

    What wires together fires together. Handle your trauma or your friends and It grows.

    Healing happens when you learn to accept and let go of thought. It does not matter if you trigger her or she triggers you, healing is the same. Healing comes with not wondering, not thinking why, or what if.

    It is over and healing is accomplished in this moment. SPend more time in the present and feel better.

  15. Posted by Lindsay on September 2, 2012 at 1:50 pm

    Hi Marty,
    I’ve just found your website and have spent about 1/2 an hour looking and what I’ve seen so far is amazing. My concentration span is very limited, so short and sharp is how I go at the moment.
    I was diagnosed 8months ago with PTSD and have not found anything that is not directed towards Veterans. No disrespect intended. It is a relief to know that I am not the only non veteran with PTSD.
    I have come up against a lot of “Oh yah you’ve got PTSD” but you’re not a soldier, so now I just don’t say anything and tend to avoid being around people that might want to know why I no longer work, and that in it’s self is devastating, as I have worked and provided for myself since I was 18 and will be 44 in November.
    I am ready and will to try your Healing Model as I am pushing my family away due the PTSD and the lack of support for myself let alone for partners and children.
    I look forward reading your blog and would like to say thank you.

  16. well information is so voluminous with therapies popping up everywhere today. As all this information proliferates towards us daily. PTSD has a way of breaking our concentration and we lose track of time, events and healing.

    PTSD does not care if you got it from war, childhood or something g else. We heal the same way.

    Try printing out a breathing track model and with eyes open trace your breath and feel the air inside your nostrils. concentrate and try to hear lower and lower sounds.

    if you do the daily work improvement will follow. Let thinking go, let thoughts flow on through without engaging them.

    Welcome and good healing

  17. Posted by Efrat on February 5, 2013 at 9:11 pm

    I am 47years old,and just been diagnosed as c-PTSD,I grew up with a very sadist biological mother and my childhood was full of suffering and survive on daily basic,even though I got married and having 5 children. I am very optimist and wants to engoy my left life,I think I had enough!!!!!! Thank you very much for the article!!!!!!

  18. Thank you for this information. I am going to start using this everyday. I have been working on daily praises to help with my depression. I’m also trying to practice the serenity prayer, change what I can and accept what I can’t. I look forward to exploring your blog some more.

  19. Great, feel free to ask questions, enjoy the journey of healing.

    Marty

  20. This site is helping me so much, thank you Marty!

  21. That is why I started this blog, to fill in the gaps, we all face. Thanks for the feedback and good healing.

  22. Posted by Nik P on July 26, 2013 at 9:15 am

    Hi Marty, I recently came to a self diagnosis of cptsd with the help of my partner. I had a slightly unusual emotional and physically abusive childhood with my mother, in that my intrinsic memory clearly tells me that I was heavily verbally and physically abused in my early years (0-5), and then my mother moved to attempt to “cover up” these abuses between 5 and 14. From age 12 to 14 she did this by flooding me with attention and holidays, and her time. In fact she wanted more and more of me, which is a stark contrast to the horrendous abuse that took place when I was very young, when she clearly didn’t want me or love me. I have almost no actual memory of 1980-1986. My dad had a brain haemorrage in 1980.

    My mother separated from my father and made him leave the home when I was 12. This resulted in me becoming like her husband, confidente, and dependent. So while I was now the focus of her attention, which of course I loved, it was a whole new co-dependent abuse cycle kicking off. As I got older, and wanted my own life (14+), she then reverted back to the old ways of abuse, extreme verbal abuse and also physical abuse. I of course shut all this down in my mind to protect myself. This abuse continued my whole life, although I stopped her hitting me around the age of 16. I thought her hitting me was totally normal, and acceptable.

    She is now dead, as is my father, they both died in 2011. I have massive issues in her “getting away with it” before facing me to hear what I now want to say to her, and confront her with.

    This has left me with cptsd, I am also a narcissist, and a co-dependent. In short, a complete mess. Luckily, I have a strong partner, who has helped me find all this out. We are currently attempting to re-parent each other, to heal the damage caused to us by our parents. (She is also a recovering narcissist, and co-dependent….it sounds like a recipe for disaster, but it is the opposite because we are aware of all this).

    There is so much that is not written about these “emerging” mental health issues. When my “protective shield” got cracked for the first time, it was whilst I was on holiday with my partner. I went into my first ever cptsd “shock”…I call it “shocking out”. I didn’t know what it was, we were having a heated exchange in a claustrophobic log cabin, it was raining outside, and there was nowhere for me to escape to.

    I started to rage at her, my son was also there, he is only 3, it was awful for him to experience. (You can now see, if we are not aware of what is happening to us, how cptsd, narcissism, is so easily passed on to our children).

    Something literally snapped inside my head, I had a shockwave pass over me, as it passed across my face from right to left, my bottom lip actually involuntarily moved into a strange position slightly to the right of where it should be. I sat down on a chair and stared at my partner, she said “are you alright?”. I think I said “I don’t know”. I started to cry. I then went and lay down on the bed in the bedroom. I stayed there for over 4 hours, motionless, aware that something massive had just happened to me, but not sure what. I said the feeling and shock was like “dead babies being found outside your front door”. Horrific and grotesquely disproportionate. This was my first ‘aware’ cptsd shock.

    I cant always tell when im going into shock, but the single trigger I found was my 3 year old son when he rages at me. His blind anger which I cannot return at him sends me almost instantly into shock.

    It seems as though at some level or other, our “life protection”, which we built as children to keep us safe from the awful parental abuses, has to be cracked open in some way for the person to “realise” they are in shock/cptsd.

    How long do your shocks last for? Mine last for 3-4 days to go into and come back out.

    Can someone else talk about their initial discovery of their cptsd and how it came about? Was their a trigger? An initial fight? A fright? Imminent danger?

    Thanks

    Nik

  23. Well, let me answer a few of those questions. It is not important if you remember or do not, it will all surface on your healing journey.

    my C-PTSD from childhood exploded when my daughter called late one Friday after a horrible car accident, screaming about her injuries. That moment of helplessness and my weakness and injuries from my accident, sprang trauma into my life.

    Comparing your symptoms will not help. You will heal by not thinking about your past, your trauma but focusing on the breath and practicing to let go and face your fears.

    What are you currently doing daily to heal?

    Are you using affirmations and a gratitude practice?

    Are you working out, flushing the cortisol and pushing yourself and mind?

  24. Posted by Nik P on July 29, 2013 at 12:16 pm

    Hi Marty, thanks for replying. First of all, I believe it is helping thinking about my past. It is impossible not to think about it. It is like missing time which is now “de-misting”, revealing the truth about what happened to me, that my mind had shut down and hidden away. This is all new information, not old repetitive information that I obsess about, I have only just started to feel all this, and know what it actually is. I have spent my entire life up until the last couple of years with no idea why I felt “down a lot”, and only literally the last month with an awareness that this is actually cptsd.

    I believe I have a learned helplessness inherited from my mothers upbringing, which makes self healing difficult.

    This weekend I had a flashback that was very severe, it felt like I was in a war zone, the anticipation of imminent violence against me was over powering. Luckily my partner was with me to help me through it, I have never experienced this level of trauma before. This now shows me the level of abuse that took place on me in these “misty” times, and I believe I must feel these traumas through these shocks, to heal.

    In answer to your questions, I don’t do anything to heal so far, I don’t know what to do. I think feeling these shocks and processing them and understanding them was healing. Can you tell me what I should be doing? Any advice would be great.

    No I do not have affirmations or gratitude practice yet.

    I walk about 4 miles a day to and from work which seems to help at a certain level, I do not know how to flush the cortisol, and I don’t think I can push myself too much more, although id like you to explain more about what I can do that I do not know about. This is all still very new to me.

    Thanks

    Nik

  25. Hey Nik,

    Well thinking about your past too much is called dissociation, leaving this moment and fuels our trauma. We learn and heal by observing the thoughts and following the body sensations.

    Okay, here is an easy way to start since you are currently in a state of confusion, overwhelmed and as you say helpless, print the breathing track model and start tracing your breath around the model.

    Our goal is to train the mind to focus on the breath, in fact we want to build this focus so we can stay present. Our goal is to focus on the breath when triggers pour cortisol into our system, we observe the body sensations and let the storyline fade when all hell breaks loose and fear explodes.

    I will retrieve some posts to get you started.

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    https://ptsdawayout.com/2013/06/07/the-breathing-track-secrets-i-think/
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    https://ptsdawayout.com/2013/07/26/breathing-track-basics/

  26. Avoidance is a symptom you describe along with dissociation, it does not help but makes it worse.

    Try getting him interested in building focus, using mindfulness, and meditating. I have a model to make it easier.

    he can not think his way out, he must let go the memories, trauma and focus.

    See if he is open to,working a little everyday on healing and we can get started.

    It takes action to heal, mental action

    Good luck

  27. Marty I’ve read with great interest almost all of your blog. I came to the self diagnosis of c-ptsd after many years of pain and repeat patterns. I have for the last 6 years been working from the ground up to break down my fears, in the last 6 months this has moved to another level and I started having non epileptic siezures. At first these events were coupled with what I can only discribe as regressions, I was that child again and each trigger sent me to a different part of my abuse. I have relived being beaten where the hands raining down on me were larger that the forearms I was holding out to protect myself, also being dressed and raped at some kind of day centre of babysitter when around 3 to 4 years old and much more, noneof these things I knew before these siezures. I do rememeber many horrible things but nothing prepared me for these.

    More recently the severity of the siezures has reduced though sometimes they can still last for many hours. I have not once in the last 2 years allowed any of the negative, horror movie thoughts to bring me to a reaction in the present even when it has felt totally convincing that I was being tricked or lied to. This seemed to bring on the siezures and regressions.

    There appeared to be a pattern of seizure pain followed by longer and longer periods of freedom. Then a month ago I started feeling very confused, this produced a sickly dizzy feeling and for the last month I have been fighting panic feelings almost every moment, coupled with an anger I can’t place. I have had a few windows of calm in which I could see far more clearly the road ahead than I ever have before.

    I started practicing your breathing technique 2 days ago and can say to my surprise I found myself calming greatly, this was then followed by anger feelings and once again I’m back to the dizzy sick separated feeling again.

    It feels like my mind is preparing to show me something and something it is finding hard to express. Is it possible my mind is preparing to show me more, I feel so close to the life I should have had now……. Does this sound piossible or am I just hoping for a break in this pressure and confusion?

  28. Thank you for your insight. I do not profess to be a therapist or be able to judge where you are however I can give you a few tips maybe.

    Relax in the judging of how things are going for a while. May I ask if you are working on your self image with affirmations also. Sounds like these are needed, they helped me enormously.

    Healing, my opinion, you do not need to live through every trauma of a child hood to heal. If you just focus on the breath, quieting down, then listen intently for the sound of the breath, a place to observe, integrate and build security will open up for you.

    Realize all these worries, fits, seizures are not fatal and not as serious as you may think. My fears and shaking for days was fueled by my dissociation and habit of honoring my trauma thoughts as powerful.

    Keep up sitting and letting go, then try surrendering to any judgments or fears that arise. Do not resist them, catch them with an open heart to explore them.

    Good luck.

  29. Thank you for your thoughtful and very prompt reply Marty. I will include self affirmations indeed have already begun. I think it is important for anyone else reading this to know that nothing can be changed until all usual, or habitual points of escape are blocked. Recognising these habitual self soothing acts as that is very difficult. Took me over a year to recognise all of mine. I truly believe that the seizures are necessary, they don’t scare me, quite the opposite, I see them now as the point at which acceptance and release is found. Rather like unzipping a compressed file on a computer and deleting the contents. I don’t look for whats inside I allow it to pass, its the moments or hours before the unzip that hurt. I was in that moment when I wrote before. As I become more adept at living with those moments the unzipping comes faster.
    Nothing works from my perspective until you have found safety. Self affirmations etc are as nothing if you are in a habitually poor relationship etc. Overcoming the need to be abused and giving yourself space is the first step, I started by challenging the non emotional before I moved to the big fish.

    It was only by not reacting to extreme pressure from within to run to a habit or run away to the ‘begin again’ I understood that the shaking etc started. I let it happen as I’ve been down all the other roads.

    I to am no professional but I’m becoming more and more certain that facing triggers and allowing the unzipping is essential when it comes to showing a broken inner child that the only way out is the way you came in. Pointing out as you leave that place just how different it can and will be.

    I see the sickness and spaciness I’ve been feeling as that child becoming braver and choosing to join me. The seizures are shorter and dare I say it sweeter each time, yes he fights he kicks he screams but he’s loved and is learning….. The breathing and self affirmations add pace to this ride, before safety and habit breaking they got in the way.

    The right road is unmapped all pointers that say ‘get off here’ must be ignored.. Safe havens are anything but cos you’ve been there before. Period of panic are to be accepted, they will pass. It’s you at the other end.

    I hope…….

  30. My journey of healing was violent at time as you describe these seizures. When I would integrate some trauma over time it was explosive as it left, acting like it was pissed off to lose power. Nth is subsided over time and everything cleared.

    What you describe is healing and if you are doing the work let judgment and thought be for a while and sit more. Accept more then surrender to the fear, open the heart and explore your emotions from this distance

    Good luck

  31. Thank you Marty it gets clearer 🙂

  32. I every time spent my half an hour to read this website’s articles all the time along
    with a cup of coffee.

  33. Marty, I agree so much with the attitude needed for one to fully recover from PTSD which you explained so well. I know from personal experience as a therapist treating Veterans and others with severe PTSD how devastating this illness is for not only the individual their family family and friends. I just want to make sure you have heard of another treatment option called PSYCH-K. PSYCH-K is an amazing process that works deeply on the human subconscious. Disconnecting the emotional trauma from the memory. PTSD symptoms can respond very quickly to this simple and effective technique. One does not need to use “talk therapy” to work through trauma. In my experience as a therapist for over 30 years, I have not seen anything as effective and efficient. PSYCH-K is not really appreciated until it is experienced. I believe, it won’t be long before this rapid mind set technology is acknowledged as a cutting edge transformational tool by mental health professionals around the globe. It is so effective it can’t be ignored. The international PSYCH-K website is: https://www.psych-k.com/. I hope you find the information useful. I care!

  34. Posted by Anonymous on July 3, 2015 at 1:33 am

    Marty, Is there a way to follow/track your blog? Can you direct me as to how? I’m liking the value of what I’m reading. Well done. Thank you.

  35. Not being a techy. I know three ways, through Facebook or Twitter or start a blog on WordPress and you will be able to follow,other WordPress blogs with one button.

  36. Posted by Robert Ives on August 15, 2016 at 5:38 pm

    Although I don’t have PTSD, I am a GW Vet that has RA. I also have a son with Type 1 Diabetes and another with a mild to medium Autism Spectrum Disorder. I’m going to back up the comment made above by gods love in action about Mycoplasma.
    Personally, I got very ill. Even to the point of wondering if I really wanted to continue on. Then, I ran across Garth Nicolsons information and immed.org. Armed with the information that I likely had a Mycoplasma infection (and or other bacterial or viral infections), I began treating for that (and am now WAY better and still getting SLOWLY better each day). Why am I posting here? Because I have come across a lot of information indicating that some PTSD might be bacterial in origin.
    Also, I have personally experienced depression, anger and other non-characteristic emotions directly as a result of my illness. It does appear that bacteria can literally drive you crazy, make sure joints stiff and painful, cause complete disability, and in some cases, death.
    So, if you are a vet with PTSD, search Youtube for garth nicolson videos. Then, I recommend you do 3 things. Treat your gut with Pro-biotics/digestive enzymes, treat your immune system with Bovine colostrum and a multi-vitamin and then treat the bacteria population with:
    – Cat’s claw
    – ‘Myco’ by raintree
    – Oil of Oregano
    – Lauricidin
    – (in a month add Serra peptase and or NAC to help with the more deep seated bacteria)
    Also, might have your PC do blood tests for Thyroid (T3, T4) as well as vitamin D. They say Vit D is always low in Myco infected people. My PC likes to see Vit D around 80. Mine was 15 and that was after supplementing 10,000 IU per day for a month or 2 prior. Your vitamin D should be liquid, not capsule and should have Vitamin K in it as well. D is actually a hormone and is supposedly better absorbed when taken at night.
    Hope this helps someone.

  37. Posted by Myname on September 15, 2016 at 12:49 am

    I love this post. Does this help stop dissociation and the parts in conflict?

  38. We need to integrate past trauma and our stuck parts

    This is one way to heal

  39. What is the breathing track? I like your words and understand most of it- but for me there was some missing info; like how you structure your breath work!? Cheers

  40. The Breathing track is the infinity shaped model, a continuum of the four parts of the breath. Inhale,pause, exhale, pause complete one cycle of the breath.

    https://ptsdawayout.com/2012/10/26/a-new-film-from-the-studios-of-my-back-jacuzzi-parlor/

    Our goal is to focus on the breath with specific, intense focus as thoughts release and flow on by quickly. We desire to reach a stage where thought has cleared and we are present in a heightened awareness of now.

    It takes a mere 15 minutes plus some application during the day to make major changes in your life.

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