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can you tolerate surrendering to what you fear?

“Acceptance” is the path less traveled. We accept all of ourselves, right now, the good, the not so good, the joyful and the unworthy thoughts.


Acceptance helped me improve and face my demons. After much work, my fear of triggers exploding persisted.


Then I found surrender, using my heart as a butterfly net to gently catch my fears and unworthiness. Open your arms and catch your fears with your heart, your catchers mitt.


All resistance has faded as our heart is exposed, open, vulnerable.

Yes, vulnerable, surrendering when every thought wants us to avoid, turn away and isolate.


This is how we explore our inner world, our demons that haunt us subconsciously.



Open your arms, expose your heart, become familiar with your demons.


It took me being vulnerable to heal.

Find a purpose for each thing you do


From positive psychology
Enter your mundane chores. Be the knife that slices the vegetables.  Slow down your pace, increase awareness.  


Let thought go, just be in the middle of this task.


Find the purpose for doing the laundry, washing the dishes, cutting the grass or going to school.


There exists joy in the present moment if we search for it.

Nothing is a waste.

Zeroing In On Brain Stimulation for Depression By Janice Wood



In a new study, patients with moderate to severe depression reported significant improvements in mood when researchers stimulated the orbitofrontal cortex (OFC).

Researchers at the University of California San Francisco say the study’s finding are “an important step toward developing a therapy for people with treatment-resistant depression, which affects as many as 30 percent of depression patients.”

Using electrical current to directly stimulate affected regions of the brain has proven to be an effective therapy for treating certain forms of epilepsy and Parkinson’s disease, but efforts to develop therapeutic brain stimulation for depression have so far been inconclusive, according to the researchers.

These earlier efforts focused on stimulation of deep brain regions within the cingulate cortex and basal ganglia that are known to play a direct role in emotional processing, but much less is known about the emotion-regulating functions of the OFC, a small region on the lower surface of the brain just above the eyes, they note.

“The OFC has been called one of the least understood regions in the brain, but it is richly connected to various brain structures linked to mood, depression, and decision making, making it very well positioned to coordinate activity between emotion and cognition,” said study senior author Eddie Chang, M.D., a UCSF professor of neurosurgery and member of the UCSF Weill Institute for Neurosciences.

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mindful thoughts

Take stock of how your mind behaves. What do you think about first thing in the morning?



Write down your doubts, worries and fears.


Write down your strong points, your actions that bring the most peace.


Become aware if doubts, worries and fears outnumber your joys and peaceful moments.



Are you a positive or negative thinker?


What influences these choices?



Get to know your mind, explore!

The Parts of the Breath: Purpose


In my universe, the breath has four distinct parts, each with a purpose. Working fluidly together, they can flow like a sheet of music.


The inhale brings oxygen (life force) into our lungs. This movement takes energy to expand our lung cavity. Inhaling deep down into the diaphragm absorbs 20% more oxygen. Focus as your lungs expand.


The first pause takes power to hold back our inflated lungs. The purpose is to allow the oxygen to be absorbed, the most immediate physical need we have. Suicide rates are higher at higher altitudes, connected to oxygen levels. Our mind uses 25% of our oxygen, it never sleeps.

The exhale releases carbon dioxide, the waste product from our oxygen consumption. The pressure is released slowly, effortlessly, calming our nervous system. The exhaust is warmer than the inhale, slower without effort.

The last pause takes little energy. The lungs are empty and at rest, the purpose is to let the toxic air, the carbon dioxide, to dissipate. We do not want to inhale air-filled with carbon dioxide. We pause to take in oxygen rich air.

Meditation is the specific focus, on each part of the breath. It is training the mind to expand awareness, to unplug the cognitive engine for a break.

Know your mind, explore the inner world


Where does your mind settle? What entices your mind into thought?


Rick Hanson’s says our mind has a negative slant, positive is Teflon, negative is Velcro. We always slow down to see the horrific wreck on the freeway.


Our mind unattended finds the negative, quickly!


This seems to be the origin of how we waste our lives.


We need to limit the time our mind is left unattended, wandering or ruminating in thought.


Seems a simple task. Our mind can be our friend or mental torturer.


Get to know the patterns of your mind, your daily thoughts, worries, doubts and fears.


Our wellbeing grows when we limit dissociation into past or future thought.


Do you know your mind or does your mind control you?


Do you know your inner world, nervous system?

Healing from childhood abuse



Trauma is stored in the right amygdala as implicit memory at the time it occurs.


It is stored along side your capabilities at that age.  Abused at five or ten and you feel like a child when trauma erupts. 


Part of healing integrates this trauma to the present moment.


My trauma is many decades old and my abuser is dead, so real danger is a mirage in real life.


The adrenaline and cortisol that jolts my nervous system is real. Our fight or flight mechanism is broken, reading danger everywhere.


Our goal is to integrate this implicit memory to now. We are not a 10-year-old anymore and have many more skills and alternatives now.


Our trauma happened before our minds developed fully thus confusing development with trauma.


Know the mechanism and characteristics of your abuse.  Write your triggers down to limit their power and their ability to impact your nervous system.


Develop a plan and a daily practice to confront this disorder.


Take action!



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