Defining ourselves!!

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Do you define yourself by your losses or weakness?

Subconsciously, I certainly did for most of my life. Perfection was demanded! An impossible request.

My healing path, redefined myself as what I overcame. That felt good.

As I developed, deepened, defining myself faded, I was just present, more and more.

One day while hiking, nature and my breath (my being) merged.

I kind of floated up that hill.

On reflection, my happiest moments were void of thought, engulfed by my surroundings, vivid, sort of timeless.

On reflection, I am present, free of thought much more during the day.

Life has improved, calm, kind feelings surround me now.

I approve of Marty, all of him, finally.

You can find your path also.

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Do not give power (attention) to what is in your mind!

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Do not give power (attention) to what is in your mind!

Do not give power (attention) to your critics.

Do not give power (attention) to your worries.

Do not giver power (attention) to your wins or losses.

Compete where you are now.

It is all there is, give all attention to now, to what our eyes see, ears hear, nose smells etc.

It is all that exists, the rest we create, that narrative about I, me, mine is made up.

Give power to what we see, touch, smell, hear and taste!!!!!!!

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7 Years …………..76 billion pills: Washington Post

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BY SCOTT HIGHAM, SARI HORWITZ AND STEVEN RICH

America’s largest drug companies saturated the country with 76 billion oxycodone and hydrocodone pain pills from 2006 through 2012 as the nation’s deadliest drug epidemic spun out of control, according to previously undisclosed company data released as part of the largest civil action in U.S. history.

The information comes from a database maintained by the Drug Enforcement Administration that tracks the path of every single pain pill sold in the United States — from manufacturers and distributors to pharmacies in every town and city. The data provides an unprecedented look at the surge of legal pain pills that fueled the prescription opioid epidemic, which has resulted in nearly 100,000 deaths from 2006 through 2012.

Just six companies distributed 75 percent of the pills during this period: McKesson Corp., Walgreens, Cardinal Health, AmerisourceBergen, CVS and Walmart, according to an analysis of the database by The Washington Post. Three companies manufactured 88 percent of the opioids: SpecGx, a subsidiary of Mallinckrodt; ­Actavis Pharma; and Par Pharmaceutical, a subsidiary of Endo Pharmaceuticals.

Purdue Pharma, which the plaintiffs allege sparked the epidemic in the 1990s with its introduction of OxyContin, its version of oxycodone, was ranked fourth among manufacturers with about 3 percent of the market.

The volume of the pills handled by the companies skyrocketed as the epidemic surged, increasing about 51 percent from 8.4 billion in 2006 to 12.6 billion in 2012. By contrast, doses of morphine, a well-known treatment for severe pain, averaged slightly more than 500 million a year during the period.

Those 10 companies along with about a dozen others are now being sued in federal court in Cleveland by nearly 2,000 cities, towns and counties alleging that they conspired to flood the nation with opioids. The companies, in turn, have blamed the epidemic on overprescribing by doctors and pharmacies and on customers who abused the drugs. The companies say they were working to supply the needs of patients with legitimate prescriptions desperate for pain relief.

The database reveals what each company knew about the number of pills it was shipping and dispensing and precisely when they were aware of those volumes, year by year, town by town. In case after case, the companies allowed the drugs to reach the streets of communities large and small, despite persistent red flags that those pills were being sold in apparent violation of federal law and diverted to the black market, according to the lawsuits.

Plaintiffs have long accused drug manufacturers and wholesalers of fueling the opioid epidemic by producing and distributing billions of pain pills while making billions of dollars. The companies have paid more than $1 billion in fines to the Justice Department and Food and Drug Administration over opioid-related issues, and hundreds of millions more to settle state lawsuits.

But the previous cases addressed only a portion of the problem, never allowing the public to see the size and scope of the behavior underlying the epidemic. Monetary settlements by the companies were accompanied by agreements that kept such information hidden.

The drug companies, along with the DEA and the Justice Department, have fought furiously against the public release of the database, the Automation of Reports and Consolidated Order System, known as ARCOS. The companies argued that the release of the “transactional data” could give competitors an unfair advantage in the marketplace. The Justice Department argued that the release of the information could compromise ongoing DEA investigations.

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Meditation: Dying into the nondual; “Beyond Mindfulness” by Stephan Bodian

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Shift your attention from your thoughts to your bodily sensations.

Be aware of the sensations of your body against the chair, your feet against the floor, your hands against your thighs. Be aware of the sensations of your arms and legs, your chest and belly, your neck and head.

Be aware of the play of sensations, how they’re constantly shifting and changing and how your awareness dances from sensation to sensation.

If you look closely, you may come to realize that all you can really know of your body is the sensations you’re experiencing right now.

Everything else is your projection, the image your mind uses to fill in the gaps.

For example, you don’t experience your whole arm, you just have certain sensations in the vicinity of where you presume you arm to be, and you project the image of an arm upon it.

It’s like an impressionist painting. There are thousands of points of color onto which we project a water lily, or a woman, or a building.

In the same way, you project the concept leg or head onto a collection of sensations.

Let go of these projections, these concepts, and just be with the sensations as they are, without interpretation.

Notice that surrounding these sensations is open space where no sensation exists at all.

In fact, there’s far more space than there is sensation, and the sensations are playing or dancing in this space.

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Give Power to where you are.”

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“Do not give Power to what is in your mind, give Power to where you are.”

Dr Andreadinardo.com

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My two cents:

People have this blank stare when I say “Be in the moment, right now”.

Give power to where we are, is specific and engages our senses.

See the greatness of the sky, the trees, flowers, not the thoughts in your head.

A life spent inside our head, grappling with thoughts and emotions is wasted.

What will you have to show for all your thinking.

Not much you could take with you.

Surely happiness was a constant stranger on your journey.

Place all attention on the senses, observe, be, to live fully.

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The amount of time and energy devoted to healing is _____

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I have observed many people with disorders of varying degrees, those with severe symptoms, suffering the most did not feel the degree of urgency needed to improve.

Even those mature adults who have suffered over 50 years, feel some urgency but are blind to comprehend what it takes to improve.

Healing or improving is not a part time endeavor.

If you have been suffering for decades, reinforcing the strength of your disorder, healing will take persistent, dedicated action.

For me, I lacked someone to direct me, so some of my efforts did not help.

Our energy level and effort can not wane from lack of improvement.

Expect setbacks and challenges along the way, keep applying effort.

Effort and attitude are crucial in this healing journey.

For most, they do not see or realize how all out effort to heal is our first priority.

Somehow other things seem more important, our Ego convinces us that healing is not that important right now.

Sitting quietly, focused, alone with our mind, scares the hell out of many who suffer.

We have to focus and get out of our mind to see the correct path, the healing journey.

It is the path less travelled. Increase your effort when resistance is the greatest.

How do you distract yourself away from depression, anxiety, PTSD, etc.?

Some overwork, some keep busy constantly, some deny, others think or talk incessantly.

Anything but sitting quietly, anything but exploring your inner world, anything but letting the noise clear for reality to emerge.

What is more important, more valuable than healing and happiness?

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The Mind works best ______

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The body can go supersonic, the mind works best going slow, being focused, empty of thought.

Multitasking goes beyond being fast, out there where awareness has faded.

Try slowing the body and mind at the same time.

Sit quietly, feeling gravities pull on the bottom of your feet and on your butt.

Ground yourself, gently.

Use your breath to slow the nervous system, calm respiration, blood pressure and heart rate.

Sense the minute body sensations while exploring our inner world.

Feel the body sensations caused by thoughts and emotions.

Breathe into those areas, slowly, focused and curious, observing without judgment.

Get to know your inner world, become familiar with the manifestations of thought and emotion.

They are connected and our friend, nothing to be feared, if we are familiar with them.

It is the path less traveled.

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