Posts Tagged ‘MINDFULNESS’

Life, like the breath has transitional moments!

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Yesterday, began early, the cat was dying, hurting. We headed to the 24 hour emergency veterinarian hospital.
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Shockingly, we were not the only ones euthanizing their pet, pseudo child. Life’s harder side was revealed to me this early morning.
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An older couple walked in with a small dog in cardiac arrest. He announced he was broke, could not afford any tests or exams and asked, please put my dog of 14 years to sleep.
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His wife shared with me, he lost his last two jobs, one to fire and the other to the company going bankrupt. The day before he received notice his unemployment had run out. The wife pulled out her last credit card to pay the $141 for the service.
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That man came out and stared into the night, tears running down his face.
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I felt his helplessness, his hopelessness, I felt that suicidal thought pass his devastated spirit.
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It is a weird place, where we go to purchase a professional death for our pets.
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I have had to go sit and let go of these strong emotions and situations. I felt a little helpless myself and, because no words came to me that would comfort this poor soul.
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Life is hard and real loss hurts. As we were leaving, he came out carrying a small white carton box. Sad.
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Desperation saved my butt!… …… ….. .. I Embrace it daily now,

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In a recent response, a viewer gave credit, reluctantly to being desperate for her happiness, calm, and some piece of mind.
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Let us explore the connotations of desperate.
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Being desperate brings many positive possibilities!
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Being desperate makes taking action much easier.
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Being desperate exists in this present moment, a tremendous opportunity for healing and growth.
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Being desperate crystallizes focus, if practiced daily.
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Being desperate eliminates the superfluous loss we ruminate about, our core fear should present itself, finally.
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Being desperate saved my ass, it allowed me to let go, accept, be vulnerable, human, flawed, happy.
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I am now desperate to be present, empty of thought each breath.
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Practice like your life depended on it, emotionally I believe it absolutely does!
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Happiness is an internal choice, a choice of letting go and placement of attention that is all. My opinion of course…

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My external environment has less impact on my daily calm, my peace of mind, my enduring happiness, than anytime in my life.
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The cause: Acceptance.
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Internally, I have surrendered, relinquished the pursuit of desires as a source of gaining happiness. I finally learned to let go.
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I am fine, even if my adrenal stress response explodes, in fact, I will harness that energy for exercise, now.
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I am also fine, now, in situations that brought suffering for decades into my life.
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Irrational fear, trauma based fear has lost its ability to scare me, it bores me now. (It will bore you also, if you accept, let go and practice daily.)
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Anxious or awkward feelings fade now, helplessly, harmlessly as feathers floating away.
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Flaws abound inside me, but unworthy has left the building, happiness (peace of mind) has taken his place .
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It is pliable, plastic, putty like, play dough, …..Davidson again!

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“But the brain can also change
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in response to messages generated
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internally—in other words,
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to our thoughts and intentions.
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These changes include altering the function of brain regions,
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expanding or contracting the amount of neural territory devoted to particular tasks,
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strengthening or weakening connections between different brain regions,
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increasing or decreasing the level of activity in specific brain circuits,
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and modulating the neurochemical messenger service that continuously courses through the brain.”
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A jock prepares to battle PTSD, it is a game, life that is!.

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I have evaluated C-PTSD from a jocks point of view, evaluated it as an opponent, explored its strengths, and discovered it’s weakness.
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If we were game planning, preparing for a contest against PTSD, daily practice would be similar to a professional baseball hitter or a pure shooter in basketball, ,,,,,”Repetition”……
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In spring training, we would hit baseballs in the batting cages until we blistered, bled, then sprayed them with tuff skin so they would callous over. We were set for another season after this yearly ritual.
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Hitting in time moved from a conscience skill to inhabit the body, fluidly unfolding when needed without thought. I could damn near hit with my eyes closed, it became so ingrained in my habitual practice. I had swung a baseball bat a zillion times in a hitting environment.
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Thought would destroy what I had built. So I would empty my mind before I would enter the batters box, another level of consciousness took over. Exactly how we tame PTSD.
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This is what 10 breaths will be for us. We will develop 10 breaths, 10 cycles of inhale, pause, exhale, pause, lasting 10 to 15 seconds a piece, two minutes total, of slow focused “bulletproof”, breaths.
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In two focused minutes, traumas story line fades, thought disintegrates and PTSD gives way to this present moment.
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Our game plan attacks trauma, our opponent where he is weakest, most vulnerable, a trigger exploding.
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We are developing ten solid breaths while we visually explore our environment, listening intently to all sounds, engaging all senses and repeating affirmations if needed.
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Manually we trace our breath on the breathing track, inhale 4 plus seconds, pause 2 plus seconds, exhale 4 plus seconds, puase 2 plus seconds.
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We do not have to meditate during this stressful explosion, just focus and stay present for two minutes.
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We prepare as a jock during practice, under calm conditions for game time performance.
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We are heading towards trauma, not fleeing, in time we will hunt him/her down with our ten breath weapon.
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Davidson: — six dimensions!!!!

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Emotional Style comprises six dimensions. Neither conventional aspects of personality nor simple emotional traits or moods, let alone diagnostic criteria for mental illness, these six dimensions reflect the discoveries of modern neuroscientific research:
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-Resilience:
how slowly or quickly you recover from adversity.
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-Outlook:
how long you are able to sustain positive emotion.
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-Social Intuition:
how adept you are at picking up social signals from the people around you.
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-Self-Awareness:
how well you perceive bodily feelings that reflect emotions.
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-Sensitivity to Context:
how good you are at regulating your emotional responses to take into account the context you find yourself in.
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-Attention:
how sharp and clear your focus is.
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Emotional style….Richard Davidson…..

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“Emotional Style is a consistent way of responding to the experiences of our lives. It is governed by specific, identifiable brain circuits and can be measured using objective laboratory methods.
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Emotional Style influences the likelihood of feeling particular emotional states, traits, and moods.
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Because Emotional Styles are much closer to underlying brain systems than emotional states or traits, they can be considered the atoms of our emotional lives—their fundamental building blocks.
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In contrast, personality, a more familiar way of describing people, is neither fundamental in this sense nor grounded in identifiable neurological mechanisms.
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Personality consists of a set of high-level qualities that comprise particular emotional traits and Emotional Styles.”
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