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The self, ego is man made by us for identification, separation or specialness. Past events of how we are treated by others and how we view ourselves are woven into a believable story of self.
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These stories are so varied from egomania to very low self worth and in between. Childhood trauma distorts our impression of who we are, drastically.
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We feel as the ego does, never equal but above or below others. C-PTSD sufferers mainly see an inferior mind-object. We feel flawed, damaged, different than others.
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All of this is a cognitive process of creating our own special or damaged ego. This creation can be changed at any time.
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It is made by us and can be altered by us.
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Simple, daily affirmations slowly convert a flawed ego to one of acceptance, approval and maybe perfection in time.
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I accept all of me, my daily effort to live in this moment and enjoy all life has to offer.
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Surrender to the vulnerabilities, to our flaws, to supposed weaknesses and be free, calm, open to all of life.
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You can reach this point with daily effort, I am convinced of this.
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Posts Tagged ‘EGO’
6 Apr
EGO:…..The self a mere mind-object!!!!!
24 Mar
The ego in comparison to the true self!!!!!!!!!
One of the ways we know we are experiencing the ego and not the Self is that the ego always experiences itself in comparison to others.
The ego never feels fully equal to others: it sees others as higher or lower, as better or worse, as friendly or potentially hostile.
The Self, on the other hand, just is.
The Self sees everything and everyone as equal to itself.
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Let the ego fade and the self emerge for more happiness and living.
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Meditate, daily and let go.
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19 Mar
Effects of fear and anxiety on Perception and Judgment!!
from Coping with Trauma Related Dissociation:
“Fear and anxiety affect decision making in the direction of more caution and risk aversion. Traumatized individuals pay more attention to cues of threat than other experiences, and they interpret ambitious stimuli as threatening, leading to more fear driven decisions. In people with dissociative disorder, certain parts are compelled to focus on the perception of danger. Living in trauma-time, these dissociative parts immediately perceive the present as being just “like the past” and emergency emotions such as fear, rage, or terror are immediately evoked, which compel impulsive decisions to engage in defensive behaviors (freeze, flight,flight, or collapse). When parts of you are triggered, more rational and grounded parts may be overwhelmed and unable to make effective decisions.”
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My take on this quote: Our PTSD ego (cognitive mind) interprets reality in a distorted, harmful way. This passage confirms my belief that the breathing track is needed so we do not freeze, flee, fight or collapse. Overwhelmed and unable to make effective decisions is not healing. We need to develop our focus directing our attention to now, instead of dissociating and fueling trauma. Simple if we practice everyday and with every breath.
4 Dec
discount the Ego’s random thoughts and judgments, entirely!
Steve Jobs and Bill Gates, who Knew two nerds would be geniuses
The ego is a useful creation for identity, nothing else really. So we do not get rid of ego, we go underneath all those distractive foul thoughts connected to strong emotions.
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We let all these thoughts and judgments flow on through as we gently focus on the breath, as we have practiced over and over. this is a simple, singular, concrete action that can be applied with every thought, every emotion, every breath.
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our action can make letting go of the ego’s offerings habit after a while. that brings freedom and a clearing of the mind to heal and see what life is really about.
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Life expands and opportunity flourishes when the ego’s influence shrinks a little each day. Happiness and freedom are awaiting you a little farther up the road.
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let go and trust, refuse to judge, refuse to follow the fear and anxious thoughts, refuse to ask why and what if, refuse to give power to thought and others.
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Live in this movement void of distraction with focus on the breath at this very second.
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It is all that life is about, right now this mundane landscape we see, this is it. look deeper, a whole world we have been overlooking with our grasp of the cognitive thought process, lies right before us.
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12 Nov
Action is the initial movement of healing:——-One man’s opinion!
Adversity confronts every human constantly, really. Our ego wants us to believe others have it made, so it opens up negative feeling and emotions for us.
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The ego gains control of our life’s direction, when we engage the storyline of trauma. We dissociate or leave this moment to think about the past or predict the future, totally futile and harmful behavior for us.
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Totally harmful and futile behavior for PTSD people to engage in. Please reread a thousands times a day.
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Please add, I exert all energy to let go of the storyline and stay present!
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Recite positive affirmations when trauma triggers arrive. Physically exercise to exhaustion.
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Take action and develop ways to keep moving when scary shit appears. Having a plan does nothing until action happens. Move and exist here and now with multiple ways of coping.
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Be able to focus on the breath and let go. Practice instead of avoiding or dissociating. Battle for your mental life.
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Never give up; Never give in; Try as hard as you can until healing begins or we need sleep. Then get up and apply effort the next day. No goals, just all out effort and the resistance of thinking.
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Think of my model as a long sharp needle and C-PTSD a great big ballon. The thickness of the balloon depends on the intensity and longevity of our trauma experience and subsequent behavior after the trauma. My laser sharp needle penetrates the vast trauma network at its core. Handle thoughts with mindful focus and PTSD collapses from within.
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3 Nov
Buddhas Brain: Self and Identification?____:Updated
margareta-snyders by Sir Anthony van Dyck
One way the self grows is by equating itself to things—by identifying with them. Unfortunately, when you identify with something, you make its fate your own, and yet, everything in this world ultimately ends.
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So be mindful of how you identify with positions, objects, and people.
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A traditional inquiry is to ask questions like these: Am I this hand? Am I this belief? Am I this sense of “I”? Am I this awareness?
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Perhaps follow the question with an explicit answer, such as: No, I am not this hand.
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My goal is to operate without the ego as much as possible. I try to show up without thought to experience all of this moment. Things, people, situation exist without my involvement, just observation.
31 Oct
My ego is in Flux:__ Changing as my practice matures!!!!!
My ego is changing, becoming much more positive, understanding the value of me. he is more calm, relaxed and confident. Emotions and thoughts do not bring worries, stress, guilt or Inferiority any more.
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Affirmations, combined with never saying anything negative about me, has shifted my experience with me. my value is clear and life has opportunity everywhere.
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We are changing long term habits connected to trauma and changing the ego is an integral part.
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Start speaking of your ego in third person. I say wow, my ego is pissed and wants revenge. He is an immature 12 year old just wanting his way and laugh.
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it is hard to grasp anger when I laugh at my ego jockeying for control. I have the keys because of my breathing track practice. that has changed the whole direction of my life. join me and practice.
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18 Jul
Healing:—-Changing the Ego’s Authority!!!!
Evariste Carpenter
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Delegate the mental hand’s(ego) thoughts to the scrap heap. Live life in this moment absent of thought, doubt and worry to be happy, healed or free.
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Set up a daily practice following the breathing track to build focus to be able to heal, be present and enjoy life freely again. Mental action is needed to heal, daily.
9 Jul
Osho:…More Suffering? What to do ?
Evariste Carpenter
“The moment you become identified with your suffering you want to discard it, you want to get rid of it, it is so painful. But if you are a witness then suffering loses all thorns, all stings.
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Then there is suffering, and you are a witness to it. You are just a mirror; it has nothing to do with you.
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Happiness comes and goes, unhappiness comes and goes, it is a passing show; you are just there, a mirror reflecting it.
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Life comes and goes, death comes and goes; the mirror is not affected by either. The mirror reflects but remains unaffected; the mirror is not imprinted by either.”
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PTSD suffering is not real, mind-made and carried out. Trauma fear is long past and over, gone for everyone but us.
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24 May
Observing an emotion and story from a distance!
Pick an emotion today with a story attached and observe its behavior through the body. Follow the sensations, unique quirks and where this emotion settles inside us.
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Our mind has patterns and habits that are activated subconsciously at times. We do not notice these patterns or habits of the mind and body!
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It takes daily awareness to investigate the inner world. I explored my inner world everyday to find my patterns and the center where my emotions settled inside. For me, most of my anxiety and anger settled in my solar plexus.
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Fear was a warning signal, cortisol was part of my sympathetic nervous system and my amygdala was disordered. All my body functions were thinking I was in eminent danger.
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This is a simple explanation and one looking back fits perfectly. I was not injured, my personality had parts stuck in childhood. Realize what is going on is natural just disordered. Nothing wrong with us.
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We are perfect when this trauma is integrated and the amygdala integrates our past to the present moment. healing is bringing those parts to current time frame. Our trauma is disordered because it is stuck. We can change that.
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