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Naming my pain, a jocks strategy to compete, improve, survive……. …. I am crazy,,maybe!!!!!!!

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Evaluating my pain one day, I realized pain was invisible like the wind, powerful without form, structure.
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My opponent, was a ghost, a real powerful, shadowy figure, capable of consuming vast amounts of energy and time.
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Tired of the chronic pain group, I threw most of my meds away, and decided to approach this challenge as a jock, a mindful jock now.
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Pain needed to have human qualities, finite characteristics so I could compete against it.
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So, I named my pain Mr. P.
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Mister P. was my opponent, when walking, exercising, competing, resisting the urge to quit when hurting, tired.
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I walked till Mr. P. cried out for me to quit, to go back and get a beer, watch TV, then I turned the music up and marched for another twenty minutes.
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Mr. P. could not stop me from moving my legs, I discovered, pain had weaknesses
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After a couple of weeks, a big shift happened, my pain compressed, I was familiar with it, a friend with it finally.
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We do not have to fear or be reverent to our pain, it needs no honor.
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Keep moving, exercise, challenge yourself, compete, exhaust yourself, rest.
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“Pain is inevitable. . Suffering is optional.” . ~Zen proverb~


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Chronic pain patient, meditator (me), pain is inevitable, suffering is optional, today.
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The pain stands alone, what we add by reacting, giving attention, becoming alarmed or afraid, is called suffering.
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It is self-inflicted, administered by our thoughts and attention.
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I do not think about my pain, my spine, my discomfort.
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I leave it alone, I do not touch it, fear it, caress it or avoid it.
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Pain does not have an cruel manner, an angry temper or evil intent, it is neutral, a body mechanism, broken now and firing chronically.
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Next post, chronic pain can be compressed, diminished, subdued, impacted.
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let us be judged by our actions……


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If we must judge us, we all do, then judgment can be made on the quality of our actions.
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We will become what we do, what we give, what we share, what we see in this current moment.
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Let friends, co-workers, neighbors, and stranger know you by actions, always a smile, a kind word, an intent ear, or loving kindness support.
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Take a needy neighbor a slice of pie, a plate of the best meal you cook, a take out order from your favorite restaurant.
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Extend your reach, purchase a bag of apples, carry them in the passenger seat, when confronted by a homeless person on any corner, give a couple of apples as gifts.
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I guarantee your experience and that homeless persons will change drastically.
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We all could spend a few dollars and keep some apples at the ready.
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Be your actions, start some new actions, small actions today.
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Can you hear your breath when you slow down, focus, listen intently?


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Can you hear your breath, hear the internal sounds our body produces, between our ears, inward.
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When focusing on the breath, start listening, zeroing in on the lowest decibel sound in our immediate space.
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Focusing on the faintest sound allows us to go below it, reaching farther away to hear even more quietness.
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Some days, when my focus is strong, thoughts fading, my listening skills seem enhanced, more sensitive, more alert, more perceptive.
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I can hear my inner sounds, between my ears, somehow listening inward, when focus has reached a certain intensity, a clarity.
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The combination of following my breath, plus listening this intently, has deepened my practice, made it much more difficult for thoughts to penetrate my no thought space.
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Following two immediate senses like this, has built greater focus for me, brought more no thought space into my daily sits and life.
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Our goal is to let go enough,,focus enough, slow down enough, to reach a no thought stage.
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Listening intently can be a great asset in our developed skills bag of healing.
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Training the mind, one breath at a time, that is how you learn to meditate…


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We are training the mind, using the breath, developing the skill to let go of thought, emptying it, and thus being at peace with this void, this empty space.
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The mind has developed habits of needing to be full, over worked, overwhelmed, numb to real feelings and living in this present moment, plagued by the doubt and worry created by these habits.
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The mind revolts when we try something so drastic, as being thoughtless and free for brief moments.
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There must be real power in letting go, calming down, meditating, because the ego resists so violently, so intensely, so rabidly.
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The mind can learn new habits, habits of letting go, of slowing down, of being present, of living in this moment, of being at peace with what is around the next bend, in this river of life.
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We are a verb, to “be”, not a noun, “I”, me, mine, life is a journey not a destination, we never arrive, we only stay present and live life, mundane or spectacular, all the same, each breath.
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Simple before complex, intuition before cognition, acceptance before avoidance, happiness before sadness, now before yesterday.
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Back to basics, new stickers of the breathing track model…..


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Always begin at the bottom right (the dot).
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Inhale…….
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Pause.. (hold)….
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Exhale…..
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Pause.. (Hold)
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Repeat, slowing down each time.
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Our goal is to find where the body feels most comfortable with the speed and length of the inhales and exhales, then the length of the pauses.
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If we find this cadence along with the ability to let go, emptying the mind, a door below the ego, consciousness will open for us.
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Very simple, no thought is the goal and it happens with our parasympathetic nervous system in charge, our brakes, activated through the breath.
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We can always add complex items or situations to our model later, after healing and deepening.
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Master the simple first, then the rest will become available.
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Do the work, as in build it and they will come.
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An accumulation of daily actions has synergistically altered my life………..

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Sitting quietly, five hours a day for a duration of five years, changed my mind, molding new neural pathways, using the plasticity to change self image to full, to change self worth to overflowing.
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First, my relationship with fear changed, staying present during triggers, fear lost is scary feature, it became a friend.
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Second, thoughts brought forward now, were not grasped, but let go, fading without attention, gradually training my mind to be empty with a slow balance breath.
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These changes left a void, large swaths of time that existed in the past as mindless rumination and inquiry, filled with negative emotions and storyline.
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The trigger moment, the most frightening time with PTSD, had been altered, because my breath slowed my mind, activating the parasympathetic nervous system, applying the brakes, creating the space to let go and be present.
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When this became habit my life was never the same again.
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All I do is try to let thought be, let judgment go, release emotion easily and focus on being present, in this moment I can enjoy life fully.
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Mindfulness is a learned skill, a habit changing daily practice, an action that trains the mind to be empty, be comfortable with empty, then visually explore all that is before us.
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The rest our intuitive guide will point the way, like a scout for a wagon train in the old west.
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Many have walked this path (Zen Buddhists) leaving a roadmap to happiness, it is a road below our cognitive prison (ego), below judgment, below emotions, below worry, doubt and resentment.
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A learned skill has more power than anything you will ever touch in life, my opinion.
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Chatter, the mind wastes breath after breath, hour after hour needlessly…


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The untrained mind grasps, wanders, then follows these machinations day after day.
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Ask yourself, have I decided where my attention, thought, has been directed, today?
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Look, how often we are lost in the trees of confusion, the mind racing after worthless objects, unimportant, time wasting dysfunctional thought.
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We spend, waste so much time with the mind full of worthless, unimportant, trivial pursuits, influenced by emotion and moods.
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We need to be more psychopathic, when it comes to rumination, psychopaths are at the other end of the spectrum, never ruminating.
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Rumination is a dissociative fishing expedition of no value, no consequence.
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Ruminate with the negative emotions present, suffering will increase, the chance for happiness will fade.
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We need to train the mind to accept being empty, breathing slowly, being balanced, mind and body.
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Our mind habits, entertain to many thoughts, to many dissociative trips, to many fear based situations, to many moments spent with the mind racing, unaware, and lost.
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Try emptying the mind, opening the door to the expansive side, the uncluttered, wordless, our thoughtless intuitive power.
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Take action, live, smile, be happy, it is a choice.
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Healed, what has changed, approval, disapproval, criticism, happiness….


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My suffering was fueled by over-valuing approval, fearing criticism and the unworthiness to link my self worth to these mechanisms.
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Letting go of judgment can become habit, as grasping traumas storyline everyday, the consequences could not be more stark, more different, more life changing..
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I feel grounded, like the call to be somewhere else, needing to improve, needing to accomplish, needing to search for the solution, has gone silent.
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My acceptance of me, my acceptance of my current plight, my situation, my status, has freed me to let go, to be here, empty, present, alive, energized and smiling.
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My need for approval, the need to avoid criticism has lost power, lost interest, lost consequences and now faded.
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Life happens when we clear our mind, staying present for whatever arrives around that next bend.
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Mindfully, I see opportunity around the bend, I feel excitement for a new day in the shower, I see giving has blessed my spirit, and saved my life.
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Depression, has never come back around, since I started sitting quietly…..

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After my triple rollover on an American interstate, depression would visit and stay for days, seeming heavy, dark, weighty.
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Resembling a run away train, once started, depression stayed for a while, resisted any effort to be happy, so this gave me repose.
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I brought awareness to my thoughts and discovered a few days before depression launched itself, my thoughts turned negative and became voluminous.
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The breeding ground of depression , then, lies in dissociative thought.
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Thought opens the door to depression.
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Learn to let go, follow the breath and depression will never get a hold, enough duration to fire, enough energy to impact now.
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These mechanisms take time to evolve, grow and launch, that means dissociation is needed to fuel this operation.
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The simple skill of staying present, then letting go, has incredible power, influence on our life, happiness or suffering, our choice.
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Take action, let thought go.
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