We do not get punished or rewarded for worrying every minute of life. The same is true for being present empty of thought experiencing now. Death arrives without concern about such impermanent trifles.
Each breath wasted wandering in thought is gone, over. Dissociation is not living life. Thoughts are air, invisible even to ourselves. Worry about what may happen consumes time for actually living.
With C-PTSD six months passes like a week because danger is always near. Triggers erupting sidetrack any chance of healing. It is easy to get lost without a daily routine. Step back and be aware the ego is luring us into avoiding, so we will follow his/her thoughts.
Trust, build focus and apply it to every thought, staying present and healing each day.