Posted March 7, 2012 by Marty in Assorted. Tagged: ACCEPTANCE, anxiety, AWARENESS, C-PTSD, DISASSOCIATION, FEAR, MINDFULNESS, PTSD, THOUGHTS, TRAUMA. 6 Comments
Are you satisfied with your healing, your effort and practice each day, each minute?
Are you short-changing yourself, following the lure of the ego’s story?
Complex childhood PTSD scares us to avoid daily practice, winning the battle, increasing our misery!
Posted by kaitlots on March 7, 2012 at 3:11 pm
It is absolutely nothing short of incredible what my ego is capable of convincing me. It’s like it wants me convinced there is no such thing as stability, peace, contentment, and things actually being ok. It is such a vicious cycle. All you need to do is stop for 1 second, and breathe. It creates even a miniscule gap between you and those fears.
Then, you by daily practice can see them for what they are. They are not you, they are not reality. You are here, now and ok.
Posted by Marty on March 7, 2012 at 4:41 pm
I have had it with victim behavior this week as I surf the net and see dissociating being practiced as an art form.
Some people celebrate victimhood and find identity in it.
This is sad so many people do not see they are causing their own suffering.
The ego is deft, tricky subtle character.
Posted by monica on March 7, 2012 at 6:39 pm
In the bible it says to take every thought captive….I like that image.If left on his own..our thought life can destroy us…like the old saying goes…its all in our heads..
I used to think that I was destined to hopelessness…not anymore.
Posted by Marty on March 7, 2012 at 6:59 pm
You are taking action. Monica was their a shift in your body or mind when you started the breathing track. Did the ego try to lure you away?
Did your feeling about yourself shift?
What changed about how you felt about yourself, opportunity and helplessness.
Posted by monica on March 7, 2012 at 8:01 pm
I am a beginner…and to be honest..I dont breathe as much as I should..but I still try to see things with awareness and be present. I will usually resort to breathing when I feel stressed. I know you are supposed to use it often…to make it a habit…not JUST when u are feeling stressed.
So, I am feeling respite from the helplessness through my awareness,staying present and breathing.
Btw reading your post daily…listening to eckhart on cd in the car ,reading books of this nature ..I am feeding myself all things about mindfulness. I also attend a stress reduction mindfulness group once a week (tonight) and that reinforces all that I am learning. Just saw a article in our local newspaper about how mindfulness is neccasry for good health.
Its like I am being immersed in mindfulness info….and I am taking it all in. I do feel hopeful because I feel like a now have a choice.
with GAD and even CPTSD …its almost feels like a life sentence with no chance or ever having parole. Now…I feel like the keys of the prison I have lived in have been thrown away…and the door is wide open! I am running!!!!
Posted by Marty on March 8, 2012 at 1:59 pm
Taking action and having hope builds the self worth and we move from sedentary to movement .
It is wonderful to watch as you see hope, then apply pressure.
Monica the stress based program is excellent.
You have a couple year head start if you use the breathing track. It takes years to get to no thought empty using the counting your breath method.
that is why people do not meditate. it takes monumental effort and practice for hours a day for years to get decent. The track will get you their if you practice everyday fairly quick.
we should ask kaithylotts how long it has taking her to reack some no thought time.
I love the running the door is open. Sounds like a great idea. Running is great movement.
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