This video brought up many emotions for me. The lawyer in this video is a hero. You can see it tears his soul apart to be that aware.
I no longer go home and enter that place of unreality. Keeping the perfect family picture is not important to me anymore. It would harm my existence to participate in this play. Having abuse ignored, with the abuser present, would do damage to everything I hold dear now. I would be compromising my values.
How could I enter a place where my reality is denied? And replaced with illusion?
I have forgiven my abuser. I raged and felt tremendous anger for a while. It is a process. Anger is natural. I let the abuser answer for his life and all that he did. I believe that he has influenced enough of my life, so he will not get another minute. I became too busy living my life.
My notion of forgiveness is letting go of hoping the past could be any different. I like my life now.